At the age of 5 my mom told the family we were now JWs, that was the day the nightmare began. Me and my younger sister were molested by an elder and my mom denied it happend. My family was ripped apart trying to please mom being the good JW and trying to appease dad being the worldly girl. Wanting to please God but the sin in my life was overwhelming and never felt God loved me - not to mention being repremanded by the elders didn't help matters much. At the age of 25 and married a man who was a Christian and in my mind I was gonna convert him into a JW. Little did I know that his mother knew the JWs were a cult and told him about the organization. Many times we fought who had the right bible and whose answers were right. This fight went on for 13 years and we almost divorced over it. I too, just never felt God loved me but my heart wanted to know Him.
Even though I hadn't attended a meeting in over 15 years and never went to any other church for the fear of really getting God angry, the JW teaching was very engrained into my soul.....I just figured I would die and await what was coming to me and my family -- (I was scared).
Something pretty incredible happened to me about 4 years ago, (I didn't see this coming) my husband and I got into a discussion of the going to church and reading the bible. For the first time, he told me I could go back to the JWs but only if I promised to read the bible. I was excited to go and I was going to attend the Sunday service.....well, on Friday my husband brings home a classified ads magazine and on the front page there was an ad to call a researcher who does research on cults...one of them were JWs. For the first time in my life I didn't get mad or offended that JWs were called a cult rather a curiosity came into my heart....I called the number and met with this man who had overwhelming evidence. As I was receiving this evidence of truth and the anger whelling up inside of me because I am having flashbacks of the hell my family went through and all the sacrafices for nothing. Now, my question is to this man if JWs aren't teaching truth who the heck is? What is God....Is there a God?
This man shared with me only one book and the book was/is the Bible (not the NWT). The questions I had were answered in the Bible and the funny thing about it I understood it. For those who are seeking and wanting a relationship with Him I urge you to buy a bible that you can understand and read the New Testiment. Jesus tells us what each of us individually must do and that is to choose who will be our master: God or satan. God desires to have a relationship with each of us that is why Christ died on the cross - so that we don't have to go to priests and confess because of Christ's death we can go directly to God in prayer and draw close to Him. Satan on the other hand desirs to keep our eyes/ears from hearing and seeing truth - that is why the Watchtower is such a good ploy because it draws many people to what they want to hear. The teachings are very good at twisting scriptures and who God is and the purpose of our being here.
Satan's desires is to keep many from knowing the Father and as long as he can keep us angry at God then his job has been accomplished.
When we accept Christ into our heart we become born again, our name is written in the Book of Life. We are apart of God's family that will reign in the heaven with Christ. This is all written in scripture.....believe me this is not only for the 144,000, its for you and me.
The JWs teachings don't have a clue who God is nor do they teach God's love, grace, and mercy for us.
The only thing that JWs got right about God's name is Jehovah which means The convenant name of God; our Father. But there are other names that are God such as Elohim means Creator, El-Shaddai means My Supply, My Nourishment. The word Hallelujah means Praise Jehovah.
What I can testify to is that He has filled my void, washed my heart clean, the anger towards the organization has in time gone away, I've had a few addictions to fill the void in my heart which was food and money, these too have gone.
God does love us.
