Hi Sabrina ( your moniker is a great mental image)
Welcome to the forum. I was also raised in the Truth, and left many years ago. If you are still in, that is ok. There are many supportive people here, and they have all , at one time or another, experienced the pain and insecurity of life "on the edge " or "out" of the religion.
Remember, for those of us raised in that faith, it takes time to learn to think differently. If nothing else, your time here will prove to you that life can and will be very rewarding on the outside.
regards
Frank