WHOOPS!!!!!

Dansk

It was one of those mornings! I don't know how it happened. I woke up ok but on the way to the town to do some shopping I felt my persona change for the worse. Claire was driving the car and on the way home, just as we were turning into our street, I spotted the congregation PO and his wife on the other side of the road. They looked straight at us with that "we're nice and smug" look. It all came flooding back. They're the ones who studied with us and told us lies. He's the one who tortured my soul for years. Their son is the school overseer, makes fun of people, including invalids, and gets away with it. I couldn't stop myself. I put two fingers up and mouthed "F*** **F!"

Oh, dear.......................but boy, did it feel good!

Trouble is, I have a conscience. THAT is not the way to behave. We're better than them. We're above that type of behaviour. But pain is pain and it needs releasing. Thought I'd share.

Ian

stillajwexelder

They looked straight at us with that "we're nice and smug" look. - Dont you just hate it when people do that - -I think I would have stuck two fingers up as wel.

shamus

Ian,

Too funny! Those smug hypocrites... and haughty! I just hate that...

I did the same thing...

I was having a beer with my disfellowshipped buddy on an outside patio. (Yes, in Canada we do have summers, and they are hot... we do need to keep our igloos air-conditioned, so they don't melt..)

Well, this jackass elder drives by in his cement truck, and is rubbernecking like crazy staring at me... so I gave him the finger. And he saw me... it felt SOOO GOOD! I never heard from him again...

Englishman

Gasp!

You gave them the 2 fingers?

Don't you remember what happened to Harvey Smith when he did that? http://news.bbc.co.uk/onthisday/low/dates/stories/august/15/newsid_2534000/2534107.stm

Englishman.

Englishman

Hey! I just realised if you click onto the above link, then go to Audio, you've actually got a Yorkshire accent!

Englishman.

xjw_b12

Dansk. Actually I wouldn't let it bother you. If I had gone through what you have in the past year, I would have yanked the wheel away from CJ, forced my foot on the accelerator, and headed straight for them........

Not to hit them, of course, (because anyone can be saved) just close enough to make them have to leap to safety, while they soil their undies.

Though thinking about it, they would probably go back to the KH and tell their "experience" about how the "angels" pushed then to safety, and voila, another JW urban legend will be born. Though I do not know how they would explain why the angel crapped in their pants !

Seriously, I envy you for the "deliciousness" of the moment, but share with you in the regret ......but...

Oh, dear.......................but boy, did it feel good!

Now there's an expression of sincerity (prayer) I can say......... AMEN

Maverick

Dansk, sometimes being caught off guard gets the best of you. I have done simular things myself. I usually smile and pat them on the back if I see them in person. Talking real sweet to them while saying how good it is that I am out of that mess and acting surpirsed that they are STILL trapped in it! After-all that's how they treat each other. Say one thing and do the total opposite! But in a pinch, or on the fly, hand gestures will get the point, or points, across! Maverick

Big Tex

We're above that type of behaviour. But pain is pain and it needs releasing.

True on both accounts. You're an adult, so you know what is acceptable behavior, but Dansk we're not robots. I believe anger and sadness, if kept inside, turn into depression which only serves to disable us. Emotions can be helpful but they can also be poison, literally, and can physically affect us.

Sometimes in this life we need to colour outside the lines. This is one of those times. Give yourself that gift. Realize the pain won't always be this intense. Gradually a scar develops which allows you to move on. It took me years to get over all of it but when I did, I felt an inner calm I never did as a Witness. There are so many things I can simply let go now, much like releasing a balloon. You will too and when you do you will have gained valuable life experience.

Be well,

Chris

Dansk

Don?t you just hate it when people do that - -I think I would have stuck two fingers up as well.

Thanks, stillajwexelder. It?s good to know one?s not alone!

Those smug hypocrites... and haughty!

Shamus. That?s what I hate most of all about them!

You gave them the 2 fingers?

Mike, I shudder to think what I would have done in my mood had I been walking on the same side of the street!

Actually I wouldn't let it bother you. If I had gone through what you have in the past year,

That?s kind of you to say, David. It just so happens he and his son are the two elders I despise most of all. They have caused me the most pain.

sometimes being caught off guard gets the best of you.

Yes, Maverick, that?s exactly it! Just wish I was more like Gandhi!

Thanks for all the support. I needed it.

Ian

Dansk

There are so many things I can simply let go now, much like releasing a balloon. You will too and when you do you will have gained valuable life experience.

I hope so, Chris. I really try hard. Thanks for understanding.

Ian

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