Yes and no. The last few years I realized I was happier without the WTS in the way of my worship.
Blondie
Were you happy as a witness?
by JH 32 Replies latest jw friends
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Blueblades
When I first learned that 'you could live forever on a paradise earth' I was happy knowing that I and my family would never die!
Now I'm happy we are all out of this false teaching,even thought it means that death is a reality for us all.
Blueblades
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Ghosthunter
A big NO. Never, ever. I hated the meetings and I hated going out in service when I was a kid, I hated the teasing at school, I hated the guilt, I hated it it all .
I could also never see the point of "living forever" on a paradise earth. Wouldn't you get bored living forever?
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frenchbabyface
Absolutely not ...
(the only good part of it was that I was feeling protected by a god - a FAKE)
So now it's only about getting along - without FAKE and the disorder/issues of the FAKE in my personnal life -
Deleted
During the honeymoon stage I was happy, the early convert years. I never did like the door-to-door sales, it made me feel ill - but I did it. But once the novelty wore off and I became a fixture then I just had fleeting periods of happiness. I do remember mentioning after a book study in the later years that "I had no joy in the service". I was quite despondent about that, I tried very hard to put "the truth" first. Hell, we had two keys to the KH. But never what I would call joy, just the happy moments socializing with some of "the friends". There was an A list, people you could have round who wouldn't rat on you for drinking too much and singing Bohemian Rhapsody, it was deliciously naughty. That was happy.
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Athanasius
NEIN!
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Country Girl
I'd rather have committed Hari Kari the whole 17 years. Does that answer that question?
CG
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dustyb
na, i always got cut out of cartoons and such. i would try to lie to myself because everyone else looked so happy, but it didn't work. they shouldn't teach a lot of that stuff to kids...or teach it period.
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onintwo
The two words 'happy' and 'witness' don't fit in the same sentence! Most of the time, I was TOLD I was happy. I read/studied WT articles like "where else can you find true friends?" "where else can you be truly happy? These articles made me feel guilty for not feeling happy.(like everyone else, presumably) So I always wondered what was wrong with me. Took me a long time to finally say ENOUGH!
Onintwo
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Mysterious
I didn't know anything else. It's not like I liked going to all those meetings, spending all that time studying, or wearing a dress. But I didn't have a choice so I always said I was happy. I guess I got steadily less happy since I was 12..seemed like I got steadily gayer since about then too maybe my subconscious was trying to tell me to get out.