Just wasting the first 50 years of my life, and at this rate I will spend the rest of it on this board ranting about it
Hear, hear! Cept for me it was close to 40 years. That's the biggest thing that bugs me. The best years of my life gone. I could have gone to the school parties and dances, had normal friends and dated classmates, gone to the movies and concerts. I could have gone to college, gotten a better career. I could have had the cars I wanted, the stuff that I liked. I haven't had a bad life, it's just that I missed doing a lot of things that I wanted to do. As I got older, I became more independent and started doing things that some loyal dubs would never have done, but there are a lot of things that I didn't do that I wish I could have.
Watch movies like American Graffitti or others of that style and while they're movies and not real, it's still nostalgic to lots of people. But it doesn't apply to my life in high school. I would have been home studying the WT while they were out cruising the streets. Look back at the styles of the seventies and laugh at the hair and clothes, execpt I didn't get to dress like that or have hair like that. I stood out as the religious freak in school. Now I have trouble relating to people in social situations. I still feel like I don't fit in, even though I want no part of the religion that so f**ked me up. But, instead of dwelling on it, I hope to improve my social skills and try to fit in with normal society and enjoy what's left of my life.