The human psyche goes through stages of development, like kids go through grade school. Looking to an authority figure to dictate everything, protect and guide, being totally dependent and idolising that figure is a stage some go through very young, and some never graduate from. Graduation, beginning to make ones own decisions, taking ones own responsibilities for the first time can be terrifying, can lead to failures etc, for the first while. Traumatic, though it was/still is sometimes for me, i'm not sorry that i took the step.
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