It was all I knew, having been raised in it, so I was a true believer and tried my best to do it all, often to the detriment of other responsibilities. My first love was my family, so they really did come first, and I thought shunning my df'd son would bring him back, so I did it. It was only when he reasoned with me that he should be able to see the family, that I caved in on one of my big principles.................and he got reinstated.............only when we stopped shunning him.
Anyway, I was devastated to find out the real truth, and so angry that god would let me be fooled in such a monumental fashion. Being a JW was everything to me, and it was hard to face the facts and one of the worst times in my life. It makes me feel it all again, just to write about it.