LyinEyes,
I'm in a very similiar place as you. Coming away from the organization with "all of the answers" to a place where you question everything and have no way to "prove" the answers is frustrating. We think that if we know the answers, our lives will be more complete and purposeful. But then again, I think about when I was an active JW. My life was not as satisfying as it is now. Now that I've the freedom to read and think; explore and express my truth and myself.
I've come to a place where I'm "ok" with not knowing the answers. I live my life intuitively and still keep my eyes and ears open for answers and lessons everywhere. I observe the patterns in life and feel that there is so much we are not aware of, so much we have yet to learn, and some things we can experience only when we are honestly open to them and with ourselves.
I just read The Road Less Traveled by M. Scott Peck. Like most books promoting a certain "truth" or belief, I take in the perspective and may think, "I can see truth to that," or "that sounds pretty whacked." I am just happy that I can do these things now and expand my worldview.
Whatever the case, I'm enjoying the journey. Who knows what tomorrow will bring? I'm happy for this moment and for the opportunity to explore and question. It keeps life interesting.
What is truth? It depends who you ask.
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