M67, greetings and welcome.
Here's a suggestion I give to students when their learning about golf. Avoid reflecting on bag shots or execution, learn from them.
In golf, your not going to make a perfect golf swing each and every time. Golfers who constantly reflect of a bad shots only hamper their progress and enjoyment of the game. To move on, you gotta learn from the negatives. Life is the same way, learn from the experiences and make the needed adjustments.
Anger and shock sets in for those who come to learn about the org. but you can't let it control you, if you do, you lose out on happiness for yourself and those you love.
This forum is a spendid forum to move on. You said you've been a lurker for some time, then, you know what I'm talking about. We have a number of positive folks that you can draw strength from, take advantage of it.
I know your not a golfer, but believe me, golf is an emotional game, so isn't life.
Here's hoping the best to you and the family. Happiness M67, happiness.
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