Like the others have said, that when you fade you are still under their mind control. I am fading also...and because I have family that are still active JW's, I have to act like I am as well. (I don't want to loose my family)
It is interesting to note how unreasonable the conversations are when I am with my JW family. The sad fact is: They don't realize they are under "mind control", I didn't when I was an active one.
When my rose colored glasses came off, is when I realized just how "subtle" the mind control was. That is why they need 3 meetings a week, to totally reinforce it over and over again, and why we were told "we must be sheeplike" to be accepted by Jehovah..(according to WTBS standards that is, so the mind control continues to work. Sheep don't question their shepherds).
Wow...this is all new to me...the pieces of the puzzle are still forming.
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