Actually, Scob, i do understand your dilema. U want to be "good," but the urge to be "bad "is stronger. I believe Paul said something like that in the bible. I hear u saying u have stong leaning to the "gay" side and cannot guarnatee u will not ever slip up again. It also sounds like u rather enjoy playing here with us bad apostates, like being a really bad boy. I'm not taunting u, Scoob. I have not led a perfect life and far be it from me to point my finger at anyone.
If JWS really acted according to scripture, u could go back. U could explain, u have done -whatever u feel is wrong, and they would let it be. Then u could start over. And God being a forgiving God, and understanding your dilema, would help u. Myabe u would slip up Scob, no one ever knows they would not do something wrong. But Scob, it sounds like u really do want to try and lead the life JWS say u should. I do not think u are going to be able to live with yourself until u try it. I hope they do not hurt u. If Jehovah was always overseeing things, He would make sure u were kept safe. he would help u and understand your dilema and give u the strength to do whatever it takes to lead a non gay life. But jehovah does not run the org. People do. And they can be so cruel. And not very helpful.. Sometimes they can just crush your spirit to the point u just give up. I would hate to see that happen to u scoob. I hope u understnd I am not here arguing that JWS are wrong, gay is ok. For the sake of this discussion, i'm saying -ok fine. They are right. U must lead a non gay life. I'm saying if they were true christians, they would help u to reach your goal, and if u slip up, well Scoob, u are a human bieng. U should not feel this fear of God. He would forgive u and help u no matter what your problem was as long as u really wanted help.
This is why i personally know they can't be the sole way to God, b/c they are very cruel people. God is not that unkind. Not that He does not have standards for us, but he is forgiving.
