Absoutely!
To survive in NYC ghetto's and high schools YOU MUST live a double life being raised as a Joe Wit if you want to live past 17!
Did You Live A "Double Life"?
by minimus 26 Replies latest jw friends
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Jonty Parkin
I was not brought up in the truth, but my ex-wife, poor soul, was. Her mother gave her absolutely no sex education whatsoever, so I don't blame my ex-wife for being 100% shit scared of sex. However, notwithstanding the miserly ration of nuptual activity that was to be my meagre portion in over 20 years of marriage, I did not lead a double life (that is unless you consider masturbation-for-sanity to be leading a "double life").
However, 20 years of living on the threshold of celibacy finally took its tool on me. An "interested person" took a shine to me, and we struck up a friendship, which ultimately proved to the "thin end of the wedge" (great witnesses cliche)!
Anyway, once I had recovered from the trauma and the guilt feelings, the realisation that I was getting the greatest lay of my life kicked in, and I wanted more - so yes, I did lead a double life towards the end. And "the end" came pretty swiftly after that, because, being the romantic sod that I am, I actually fell in love with this other girl.
The upshot of all this was, that it threw me totally out of whack, and in addition to my sexual frustration, all my of pent up suspicion and mistrust of "The Organisation" came gushing to the fore... the rest, as they say, is history.
Looking back over the 9 years or so since the JW's and I acrimoniously parted company, I reckon I've just about made up for all the lays that I didn't get with my ex-wife, whatever that's worth. I am sorry for her though. I don't think any one wants to actually cause pain or hurt. But in the end, it just got too much for me to be able to deal with. I did not go looking for extra marital stuff, but one day it just came to me, and at that point n my life I couldn't say no anymore...
Can anyone else relate to any of this?
Jonty
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happy man
No I was neve living dubbel life.
I remeber when I was traveling to Italy and france and even US when I was young, it was not so easy widh al this beutifull girls you meet, but I was never doing anything so called bad things, even if it was oppotunity to do so.
Perhaps somtetime I regret this now when i sometime think back to 1970 and my travels to US wher i meet some unbelvebel beutifull girls.
Some even travel the long way to Sweden to see me.
So you see not all was livng dubbelife, perhaps you can say i now live dubbel life, writing here at the same time as I an ongoing JW.
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minimus
Any active JW that posts here in congregational "good standing" is a "double-lifer".
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Sassy
I never thought of it as a double life even though I guess at times it was..
but in my head it was just that I weakened.. did things I shouldn't....but I still meant to get 'back on track'... and since I wasn't proud of my failings......it wasn't like I was going to tell them to the world..
I think I live a double life more now.. because there are those know on a professional basis who I did not tell I am no longer a witness..
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myauntfanny
I'd have liked to have lived a double life, but I couldn't get the hang of it, and one way or another I always got caught. I'm just one of those people who always bollocks it up somehow when I try to do anything I think I shouldn't.