by ScoobySnax 22 Replies latest jw friends
BlackSheep:
Fence sitting is tough for JWs. THe fence the WTBS creates for you is like barbed wire. It hurts to sit on it and you are going to get hurt whichever way you jump.
That is so, soooooo true; an analogy I will not forget.
Blood will flow, and irremovable scars will result, either way we go, once we've planted our butts on that razor-wire.
I think you need to accept yourself unreservedly as a good person. The place where you are ultimately judged is in your own head. There is only you and what you allow in, in your own brain. Anything you don't want to be there, you are free to evict. Well, not sexuality. It seems to be built into the body.
The good/bad issue is a real paralyser, if what your nature is falls under the latter category. The bible is full of it, except for jesus' words. He is portrayed as not too concerned w it, as he hung w the bad people. I'm sure he would have hung out w you, scoob, if he was like the gospels describe him.
Anyway, as mariah cary says, learning to love yourself is the greatest love of all.
SS
Sorry for all the frustrations, scoob.
What is the first priority for you? The one idea/concept/value/object/? that you would give up your life for if required--unless your life is priority? Is your sexuality your priority, or is there something above it? Is there anything like that out there that you love or believe in so much?
Find that. Test it to be sure. And then live by it.
That might help you define things better, and help all these other things fall into line.
bebu
