I told my mom I will never be a witness again.

by sandy 24 Replies latest jw experiences

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  crinklestein

  Crinklestein, normally I would agree with you. I almost let this bother me. But I know my mother is concerned with this but, abuse is such a sensitive subject for her. It brings up her own feelings she is too afraid to deal with. Yes it is selfish on her part but unfortunately that is the way it is. I can either stay angry or move on. I chose to move on and have the best relationship with my mother as I possibly can.

  She has apologized and cried with me over my father abusing me. I just wish she would get help herself for her own problems. But I cannot force her.

  I know it is eating away at her and if I do confront the elders it will be on the molestation and the UN scandal. I will let my mother know what they said about both subjects.

  Then I wish you the best of luck. Let us know how it goes.
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  sandy

  Hmmmm.... I wonder if it was just a coincidence or if my mother told my brother (MS Servant who acts like an Elder) about my doubts.

  One of the days my brother came to visit me in the hospital he left me a couple magazines.

  The June 1 st WT "SHOULD I BELONG TO A CHURCH?"

  He then prayed with me and thanked Jehovah for helping me through my whole ordeal.

  My question to him is Why would Jehovah help me, an apostate through my "whole ordeal"?

  Why do I need to be a witness, at five meetings a week and out in field service if Jehovah will still help me out?
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  No Apologies

  Sandy,

  My question to him is Why would Jehovah help me, an apostate through my "whole ordeal"?

  Why do I need to be a witness, at five meetings a week and out in field service if Jehovah will still help me out?

  Your logic is flawless. Methinks your brother is in over his head!
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  sandy

  Well No App, I haven't actually asked my brother this question yet. I am waiting to see if any of my family asks me anything about my doubts.

  But that thought was running through my head during my brother's prayer for me.

  You either have to be a full-time witness or you don't. Which is it? It seems the witness will say anything to get you in their ranks.

  Their double talk makes my head spin at times.
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  crinklestein

  And if God allows bad things to happen in the world to prove satan wrong then why does he think He would help you?