ScoobySnax -
Thanks for sharing that. I think that all JW youths have secrets, and the ones that really believe in it are always telling themselves that things will be different from now on. But I can't imagine how torn you must have felt trying to fit yourself into the "one size fits all" JW mould.
I am glad that you have the support of your mum. Although your sexuality is hard for your dad to deal with - he has not shut you out either.
Take care.
Rachel