I really believed.... but I was weak in that over the years I had slowed down on meeting attendence.. it's been 15 yrs since I got every stinkin meeting... I would miss at least 2 or 3 meetings a month.. so although I had kept going until last year it was not up to their requirements.. and service was minimal.........only one once a month just to get time in.. and if I talked to someone even remotely about religion, I bumped it to an hour and put that in and didnt' go..
I never ever enjoyed service