Satan has got you where he wants, alone, coping with all this by yourself
Oh brother! If anything bad happens, its Satan's fault. If good happened to you now (you won the lottery you couldn't play before), it would STILL be Satan keeping you in the world. BLAHHHH
Anyway, I don't think Satan is shunning you. Looks to me like its Jehovah's Organization and the "followers" leaving you alone, coping with this all by yourself. Mom gets to toss "salt on the wound" and feel good about it. Besides, are you suppose to "go back" to Jehovah, just so you won't be alone???? Isn't that a bad reason/motive for going back????
It seems, from your post, you've been through this before?