after many years of contemplating GOD [Generator Of Diversity] here is what I have come up with:
first it makes no sense to me that something can ever arise from nothing...so I assume and believe in some original something...
believing that I cannot believe in a creator as there is only the original stuff which can change relationship and form, but never increase nor decrease in actual amounts....
it further seems impossible for me to get around the fact that somehow this stuff is either always conscious or can become conscious under the right conditions...thus our minds..... so in a way I see the totality of this conscious/conscious generating stuff as GOD.
as to evolution, I find that GOD must have some means of inventing or becoming new forms, and cannot possess the mythical ability [never ever demonstrated to my satisfaction] called omniscience... I find the self contradictions inherent in the concept of an all knowing god to be sufficient to dismiss that myth without much of a second thought.
I also find that this GOD is not responsible for its own origins [as it has no such thing] and thus had no ability to determine its own needs, desires, qualities, and strengths...thus cannot be said to be our creator in any meaningful sense as we are all part of the one whole which had no actual choice but to manifest us at some point.
in HIM we live and move and have our being --acts 17:28
Paul was quoting a pagan mystery school pantheist and agreeing with him [probably to sell his BS [belief System] but I find this concept to be a near constant in just about every mystical religious source and underlying most of the major religions in some fashion.
I conceive of reality dreaming about itself... in this dream, the dreamer cannot know his true nature...it is forever hidden because the only things a dreamer knows are dream elements...inventions of his own mind...thus as the buddhists say, all that is known is actually an illusion of a sort.... or as I was told in a dream, its as real as real ever gets...but still a mental invention.
when you subtract everything you know, what is left is the real you....
the buddhists call this the void...not because it does not exist, but because it is void of explanation, void of qualities that we can share, because everything we share is dream, not substance.... the false self is the symbol you have made of yourself and think of as your real body.