My dearest Unk... I am so choked up, I can't find the words. So, I'll just shout a brief 'thank you' to you. Nothing else can described the love I have in my heart for you and your friendship right now. Please, then, accept those two small words, because they come 'with all my good intentions', by brother Taoist.
Dearest D., my spirit says that I 'hit a nerve', and I would be lying if I said I didn't mean to. But I am truly regretful that I did, becasuse I did not mean to hurt you, so much as I meant to awaken you to how YOU sometimes come across to me. I sincerely apologize for 'going there', a place I had no business. You received great pain from your experience with marriage, and I unlovingly exploited it. Again, I am sorry.
D., my Father loves you... and you know it. Otherwise, you and I would never have crossed paths. I would have never had the opportunity to show you the love HE has shown me, were it not for Him, for I have/had nothing of my own possession than what HE gave me... and told me to do with it. I know you understand what I mean.
I have asked of Him about your pain through my Lord and he has directed me to reiterate to you what He gave me for Ken P., and that is that He DOES speak to you... but YOU... fail to listen. You in fact, have not yet resolved IN YOUR HEART that He even CAN speak to you. You don't deny me my faith, and for that, His love... and mine... for you thrives. For he that is not 'against' me... is 'for' me. But it is your lack of faith, born of your personal pain and anger... which you REFUSE to resolve... stands in the 'gap' between you and Him.
Have you not 'heard' and were you not 'told':
"Let all malicious bitterness and anger and wrath
and screaming and abusive speech be taken AWAY
from you along with ALL badness... but become KIND
to one another, tenderly compassionate, freely
FORGIVING one another just as God also by Christ
FREELY forgave YOU?"
My Lord says that indeed you HAVE heard such admonishment... along with his admonishment to you to "strip off the old personality"... in your HEART... time and time again... and yet, you refuse to LISTEN.
His word to me is that you wish to hear... what YOU wish to hear... rather than what he is SAYING... to YOU. How then, can you contend and say that he does not speak to you... when it is YOU who refuses to listen?
D., you can have the same 'privilege' as I, which is not HEARING... for all have the capacity to hear... but LISTENING. It is a privilege to LISTEN to what the Spirit says to us, for such sayings are for OUR benefit... and not God's. When you understand that... and LISTEN... you will then 'hear'.
I love you, D., as my friend and brother, simply because you are my friend, and we are both flesh and blood. I would LOVE to welcome you, as Christ Jesus welcomed me... but it is you that must 'wish' it, as well as I. The 'ball'... is... and has always been... in your court. You have been 'invited'. Will you 'hear' and allow yourself to be 'drawn'?
To you both, Unk and Farkel, I bid my love... and the peace of my Lord... to time indefinite. I am your servant, friend, sister... and a slave of Christ,
SJ
COMF - you are a stupid man. You do not 'gain approval' in the manner that you are using. Stop lying to YOURSELF, admit your error... and repent. For my Father shows mercy to whomever HE wishes to show it.