That's funny ... I took the same questions to my conductor on Saturday, in addition to big questions about the blood policy. She and another sister from the KH answered them as best they could, but still not to my satisfaction.
They both told me that it was ok that I was still questioning, that they'd encourage me to continue questioning until I got my answers, that they could see that I just honestly want to know what Jehovah REALLY expects of us, that I shouldn't feel bad or guilty for having questions, and that I shouldn't just take their word for it.
How do you like that for a stark contrast to Holly's experience??? Here I am being encouraged to question! And by the PO's wife no less!
I'm still waiting for the ball to drop though ... it always does, I imagine.
Edited to add that I feel like I'm in the Twilight Zone with all of my "abnormal" JW experiences. I'm not kidding - this is how it's been where I'm from, folks. LOL! Maybe it's some kind of new JW tactic?