Thanks everyone.
Not to get overly psychological (because not only would it bore y'all it would bore myself), but in the simplest of terms I felt I wasn't being heard. Not just this message board, but many. (And that's a childhood trigger, which has nothing to do with being here, there, or anywhere.) Add that to the first Christmas without my Mom and Dad (they've been gone for almost 4 years but that was my first time celebrating Christmas without them), and the anniversary of my leaving the Borg, in January well, I think it all just caved in. No place felt like "home".
I spent the last day + catching up on the posts from then till now. (No, I didn't read them all!) Y'all are prolific!!!