wowww, it's been about 8 years since i posted this thread! a long overdue update:
hmm, where do i begin? things between me and my mom fell apart pretty rapidly after my last post. she went on to harrass my gf (verbally and almost physically, i was there to stop her; gf left me shortly after...understandable...), threatened to disown me if i left the org, and then when i packed up my bags to leave on my own will, she said I couldn't unless I paid her for all the expenses and costs for raising me up as a kid (crazy talk). I picked a day where I knew she wouldn't be home and left. Haven't looked back ever since, and I am so much happier after releasing myself from the "truth". Sadly, I've had to pretty much block out all contacts from my mom for my sanity's sake. I just can't view her the same anymore. The love and respect I had for her can't really be filled after all that has happened. I still wish to make amends though after all this time. Is it worth it? It still lingers in my mind as the right thing to do. She's learned to text me by phone now so she still tries to contact me but I just don't want to talk to her. I get updates from my sister (who eventually left the org shortly after I did as well; also went through the same horrors I did when she broke the news to her) and nothing seems to have changed on her end. So I'm not sure if it's even worth it to reconcile our differences at this point. It'll just bring back all the stress that I've worked so hard to get rid of over the years. I don't know if the same folks that posted on my earlier updates are here still but, I randomly ran into this site while googling "drunkenpikachu" and was nostalgic about you guys. :) Hope all is well on this side of the internet! dp