by minimus 47 Replies latest jw friends
If it was that important to "God" you'd think just one or two sentences on the subject would have been in order. The Bible goes heavy on meaningless geneologies and crap about nothing... and not ONE mention of masturbation.
Could it be it's not an issue to "God"? Just another way of organized religion destroying your self esteem so they can control you!
And no mention of being naked for eternity or being vegetarian or not doing anything that "pollutes" or not using animals as intended....
u/d
I was never afraid of doing or not doing, I was afraid, though, of getting caught!!!
Yes, I was always in constant fear.
It caused me great depression.
It caused me loneliness because I was different from the rest.
From the Witnesses and from the Worldly.
There was a point in my life, the start of my senior year in high school, where I just didn't give a damn anymore.
A girl that I falled for, helped me escape.
Nazi parents that disallowed me my natural rights as a human being.
A right to a social life.
I had a truck, my freedom, and I was starting school, happy to see my classmates again, and ready to start something new. They were surprised to see me and my total makeover. I no longer dressed in the plain clothes that Jehovah's Witnesses were constricted to; I dressed sexy with grown out hair.
It was at the point of Homecoming where I really came out. I wanted to go with my friends, and my parents wouldn't let me because I was a Jehovah Witness. I told them I wasn't. It was at that point the hatred began and my point was proven that this religion destroys families.
Still, I hid away in fear trying to party and do what I wanted to, what I should've done throughout my life.
I came to the meetings with slight hangovers. The elders noticed a change with my grooming, and so did my friends who were sons of the elders. But they followed along my worldly ways at my house, watching porn, drinking alcohol, watching R movies at my house, and talking dirty at the pool. We had a rock band, and it was going good. You could say I stumbled them. I even told one of my real conservative friends how boring an elder would be. I said to him "you should live your life out to the fullest and have many girls, not just be obsessed with one and get married with her and have babies and then become some lame elder."
Later on, I found an elder calling my parent's, saying it was urgent. My dad, really pissed at me wanted to know whats up. I said I don't really know. The elder, the father of the conservative kid, showed up and wanted to talk to my parents privately. I was scared but kept my cool consulting this site for advice, and I conjureded something out. Apparently one of or a few of my friends in my group ratted me out to their fathers. I tell the elder "here's the deal, all the things I told them, was a joke. A call for attention. They left me out from a lot of things. And your son keeps calling Ryan and me gay because we hung out together a lot. So I told him I was going out for a date, which was just a joke."
He and my parents agreed to what I said and he said he will talk to his son and correct him.
Ryan another conservative bull shitter, lied to his parents about drinking, then called me up just to tell me I need to "Make the truth my own". Whatever, to this day, when I do microphones, I look at his Watchtower and its blank.
And so none of them went to Cancun with me because they pussied out.
At one time, we all agreed that my beliefs would not separate our friendship. Another point proven, this religion destroys friendships.
I still do not know to this day, if their parents got to them or if it was their change of heart.
As for me, I have been blessed with great friends, friends of all economic, social, religious backgrounds. I party, I go to concerts, I go on dates, I just hang out and chill, and I'm going to my prom with a beautiful date. And I have a group to hang out with that displays true friendship. Most of all I'm going to college.
I also try to read God's Word in God's house, but that's hard and impossible sometimes since my mom makes me pay attention to the parts.
Stay strong, and man you will fear no more.
YES YES YES....I always wondered if the holy spirit had skipped over my old congregation because of me....it was ALWAYS ME, you know..(thanks to this place I have learned that I was basically an organization angel, telling the elders EVERY f'ing thing I did and feeling so wicked - oh well - it's over)
Fear
Obligation
Guilt
It is wonderful to be out of the FOG!
seems like some JW's looked for reasons to be stumbled as an excuse. A person would not get stumbled if they mind their own moth@ Fu*!@! got Da*@ business
what got me was the constant spying, people always always in your fu**** business. There was a sister at my cong. that would call me at work like "there's a car in front of your house, is your husband home? maybe he has company" she would do this on a weekly basis.
it got so bad i had to stop my child from working with other JW's in service because they would prey on him and ask him all kinds of leading questions. it was sick really really sick. I had to school him on what to say if someone was being nosy.
a jw reported to me that she saw another jw with another woman in his car. I said "so what! maybe it was his sister, cousin workmate whatever" get a life!
New Light that you can masterbate? LOL!! wonderful if they will ever adopt the "don't ask, don't tell" concept; yeah, I was constantly walking on eggshells as a witness, especially since most of my relatives were witnesses and there were 2 good size congregations in the small town (less than 9000) in it and you lived in a fishbowl.
Hey littlerockguy,
welcome to the board. Is LR where you are from?
purps
thanks :) and yes; I'm from Little Rock
ok.......sent you a pm littlerockguy.
purps
Was racked with guilt over having misled my younger siblings when I left the faith for a year from 17-18. I must have written them a dozen letters each trying to make up for the "negative" impact I might have had on them.
