Hi Dede:
My dear wife and I have been reading the board intermittently for several years and wondered lately how you have been coping. We have been saddened that you have had so much to endure, so many hardships. Our hearts go out to you. Sometimes we humans are very fragile, and those false shepherds, at least some of them, in the org., instead helping us, made our loads heavier.
Do not feel guilty because your faith is not what you perhaps like it to be. Our Creator understands us. I am sure our God knows that from time to time our faith is not so strong. Our Lord Jesus never ever rejected or chastised those whose faith was wavering. Remember doubting Thomas. Our Master helped him regain his conviction. It is normal to feel bruised and feel hurt when going through ordeals such as you have experienced.
Often at night, I admire the starry heavens; what a captivating sight. Does it not fill your heart with gratitude to have the intelligence to admire such awe-inspiring creations? To be able to feel appreciation for the wondrous creations strengthens my faith. After all, if there is no all-powerful, supreme God who created the billions upon billions of galaxies that whirl in endless space, who else is there to help us, especially when we are stressed, when we are hurting. We, as mortal humans can endeavour to show empathy, express love to each other, but finally our creator only, can, in his due time, mitigate all pain and suffering.
As you say, here we can find support and encouragement. My wife and I also felt pain and disenchantment after discovering that we were hijacked by the WTBS. Now we are free after many decades in the org.
We hope your niece will improve soon.
David and wife.