I keep thinking, "What if I'm wrong about this and he one day confronts me with it?"
There are a few possibilities. First of all, if there is a God who is reasonable and caring, then he surely would understand why reasonable people do not believe in him. In fact, if indeed he can read my heart and mind, then he should know that my position is borne out of 100% honesty with myself and what I see around me. In that case, I would really to meet God, because I would have a lot of questions to ask.
On the other hand, if God is like fundamentalist Christians paint him, that is, if he kills people that don't believe in him merely because they could not rationally believe in him, based on the best rational logic they can muster using the brain that he gave them, then he is a schizophrenic tyrant, and I would have serious doubts about any other claims he might make. (E.g., maybe he's not even the creator at all, but an imposter trying to hijack the earth for his own sadistic pleasure, like a kid messing with an anthill, etc, etc.)
On the third hand, God might be like neither of these two extremes. For example, he may be a semi-disinterested logician who started the universe as a diversion. In that case, it would be cool to meet him, and I doubt he would have any hurt feelings at all over the fact that I didn't believe he existed, especially given the way he constructed the place.
Of course, I don't actually believe that any of these scenarios is true. I expect nothing. If there is something, then cool, I can't wait to see it. In any case, live as best you can now.
SNG