don't belong out here was posted as an observation. Yes, a sense of belonging is important, and I find it again when I sit in the hall.. even not being able to share...most of my witness years were not miserable. Some miserable things happened, but my kids and I had a lot of fun too, even yes.. even in field service. I had a lot of very nice years as a Witness child, and a lot of great friends as a Witness teen and YA, and later too. I don't think I implied anyone else's life was empty, or 'downed' anyone in any way. If I did please accept my apology.
.But the JW teachings are the only thing to make sense to me, all of these years. There can't be a burning hell... etc.--this is where you should have found what I base choosing my religion on. And I think the hell doctrine is my 'pivot point.' The religion that is clear on this to me, and JW is unique in their teaching on it, is the faith for me.
Yes, the pressures when I am a sister again worry me. I haven't ignored that, and I have explained them to husband as best I can. He teases me, asks me how the snakes were tonight....but he has been to a KH, a special assembly day (early in the marriage) and a Witness funeral. He knows Witnesses aren't really kooks. He respects my choice and trusts that I have some sense. I never expect him to convert. He swears nothing will ever get between him and his Camels!
I used Grace in the sense I understand M. Scott Peck used it, I believe he equated it with God's love.
I didn't mean to shock anyone or make anyone cry. This was just my honest story, I knew no other way to tell it.
I do hope I will be a better sister. I was rather full of myself when I was the perfect little Witness girl ....but I have learned a lot since then and believe I will be more compassionate now. There are many things I wish I could change, but getting sideswiped with a little humility will never be one of them.
Thank you for the good wishes, I don't feel sad, I feel at peace.