Revealing a reveling rebel's rebel

IP_SEC

I’ve always been the type of person who doesn’t like to do things they way most people do things. When I think back on what kept me a witness for so long, one is the counter-culture mystique.

Being a Jdub, to me was like being a rebellious redheaded stepchild in a way. I felt like we were the underdog, fighting the evils of Christendom. Promoting truth, justice and hobbahs way whilst opposing governments, and institutions… THE MAN if you will. Every meeting, a sit in. Every day in service, a protest.

No birthdays? No Christmas? No problem, those were things that NORMs did, so by my not, I was raging against the machine.

Well now I’ve found a new outlet for my rebellious tendencies in apostasy. I’m still raging against the machine, just a different machine.

Anyone else ever feel like this as a witness?

Tune in, turn on, drop out.

Peace yo!

doofdaddy

You hit the nail on the head!!! I had truly forgotten why I joined the jws. It was the ultimate rebellion against the system, even the counter culture. Thanks for reminding me.

Crumpet

Matt - I definitely agree with this - I like standing out as different. Thats why I enjoyed being Disfellowshipped so much - I liked sitting at the back. Its probably a form of attention seeking as well as just a pure rebellious streak.

revelling in my uniqueness too!

sonnyboy

The JWs want you to rage against the machine, so I imagine that most of us felt the way you did. It was like being part of a secret club that had to do everything ass-backwards from the rest of the world. It was kind of exciting at first (the idea of rebellion anyway), but that excitement wore off after the first few super-duper-dull meetings.

Crumpet

Actually I just wanted to add to that having read doofdaddy's comment that this desire to be different and rebellious was partly why he joined JWs. I suspect that this may have been hy my dad did. He wanted to be different from his two heavy drinking, smoking, gambling parents and the JWs opened a dorr to being as opposite as possible to this.

I believe my fathers desire to do whats right and just as his heart tells him is why he never got made an elder or strove to be one, yet did as much in service and looking after the needy as any elder I ever met. And now I think that he may feel that the JW policy on shunning isn't all that loving and his rebellious streak is rearing up and thats partially why he cannot help but respond to my friendly daughterly contact after all this years!

Golf

IP-Sec, I don't waste my time thinking about the things I've done, I've done them and I have no serious regrets. Life is a learning experience, enjoy the ride.

Golf

rebel8

No, I've never felt rebellious.

doofdaddy

Yeah kinda right crumpet. I was a heavy drink/drug person who got bored with it, bored of doing what everyone else was doing, bored with the system and bored by hipocritical hippies who were more selfish and narrowminded than their parents who they were rebelling against.

Then I got bored with the jw propensity to lie and ignore massive doctrinal changes.

Life is no longer boring because its all mine, I am responsible for what I think and do. Ain't life grand?

Good luck with yer dad.

IP_SEC

Thanks yall!

Golf, I have no regrets either, not even about having been a dub. (although I do regret some things I did as a dub)

Being a dub shaped part of who I am today, I like who and what I am. So ya, indeed, enjoy the ride!

Narkissos

I can definitely relate to that.

And I think the WT political stance, which I (and many of my generation) interpreted as anti-nationalist, anti-militarist and anti-racist was about the only thing that retained me into the organisation when I started doubting a lot of things as a teenager. I needed another decade to see through that.

Revealing a reveling rebel's rebel

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