It's such a shame about the time difference ....But I will answer as best I can.
Firstly I must say that both nights I have written quite detailed stories and both times my computer failed...
So I think I will keep them more general.
My fear was not of demons or entities but much more personal and deep. Some call it the warriors journey, I don't know. AllI know was that I needed to go to the brink to learn to face my deepest fears and yes possibly the last vestiges of jw indoctrination.
I have had initiation ceremonies in Sumatra with a Shaman woman who conjured the Opoong, the ancient spirits. It was not fear inspiring but of wholeness and yes, even love....
What shifted my fear was my relationship to eagles, particularly sea eagles. Up to that point, I never resonated with them. I will not tell the story but suffice to say when I felt that icey grip in my gut, I would put the eagle in my mind, fearlessly ruffling its feathers, unshakeable with talons locked to the earth.
On a lighter note
I loved the comments of the potential forest fairie who wants to get earthy!!!
Can I suggest to you to go to the web and look up forest dance parties, we call them doofs out here, as in doof, doof, doof of the subs (Yeah that's the name above). Your way may be called forest trance parties. Just what you need.
I have found dance, particularly in the forest is most powerful in going to a deeper world without using any drug. And yes I have been to doofs on the beach with the sun rising and the dolphins attracted to the relentless bass and pschedelic sounds, twisting, surfing and somersalting in pure joy of being
Also to full moon parties in the Himalayas with the moon setting over towering snow peaks while the sun rises below in the valley.........
It's a long way from the hokie pokie with the witnesses!!! Ha Ha