Great timing with this topic. I was doing fine for the first week on this forum. Then last night I had a private discussion through the mail box with someone and we really let our feelings loose.
I actually started feeling really remorseful and sad and downright repentant over things done 4 years ago and even thought to throw myself upon the mercy of elders (who dont even know me in this new town) and apply for reinstatement. (In the light of morning.....yech to that!)
My new husband has been supportive of a happy transformation if this forum can help me do that. But last night I saw his concern. He is my body guard now. No one, no organization, no forum, no God is going to harm me with him around he thinks.
I need to back off from this conversation for awhile I think and return to my Zen books........very
lightweight and guilt free living.......more my style now.
Thankyou all and goodbye for awhile.