When I first "stumbled" (grin) onto a forum (not this one--it hadn't been born yet) I had never seen a JW forum---or any forum, when I first got a computer. I didn't know enough to lurk, and jumped right in!
I was a loyal JW and had no idea what I was getting into. But as I read the posts that seemed so disrespectful of the WTS and my beliefs, I got angry and did my very best to defend my faith. As fervant as I was---I never made a dent in what others were saying. I finally got the courage up to click on all the links I had been given as "proof" that the WTS had lied to me and every other JW.
Little by little, I could not defend these documents and proofs any longer, and DAed myself a year after joining that forum. I did not want to be associated with that evil WTS organization for a moment longer! I never regretted my decision, even after having been in it for 30 years.
It truly hurts, right down into your gut, to admit that you've been "had" and duped, but the reward of freedom from the hypocrisy and the hatefilled pretend religion, is far better than continuing to live a lie. The benefits are endless.
So, welcome to all you lurkers and look all you want---to the wonderful posts from people from all over the world, who are in different stages of recovery from this wicked and unchristian religion. I wish all of you well in your journey.
hugs,
Annie