Well, Im not a doctor and therefore am not qualified to give any medical advice what so ever. However, I do wish you well and hope that things turn around for you.
Losing My Mind
by joelbear 30 Replies latest jw friends
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vitty
I have read your post these last couple of days, and have felt concern for you, but didnt know what to say.
These feelings will pass, you know that. Even if you just go outside for a walk, look around you, look at the trees and the birds take in deep breaths, say hi to someone you pass on the street, it will lighten your spirits a little maybe.
Just know that theres lots of ppl here that care about you and how you feel.
Keep posting we`re listening
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Insomniac
joelbear- You were a member of a high-control cult, and you managed to get out. I don't know if you're da'd, df'd, faded, or what, but the very fact that you're here on this website talking freely tells me that you've "emancipated yourself from mental slavery."
That fact alone sets you apart as one amazingly brave, intelligent, and strong person. Do you have any idea how rare these qualities are? How rare it is to escape a cult? How effing special that makes you? This, along with your doctor's help, will pull you through this crisis. You're going to come out the other side of this thing even stronger than before. Please don't ever doubt yourself.
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kazar
Joelbear,
Try not to despair. It just takes time for your mind to rebalance itself. I had depression most of my life and serious episodes when I would fade from JW's. It took time to heal and yes! The boredom of not having the challenge of saving myself and family at Armageddon was the worst. But, I acclimated to freedom and am a healthier happier person now than I ever was as a JW. We are here for you.
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crazyblondeb
Joelbear-
What everyone has said is true! No matter what remember there are people here that care for you. I can honestly say I know where you're coming from. I've got some stuff going on right now. Can't sleep- mind won't shut off. Half the time I don't want to get up, or even go outside. I've got bipolar and depression. I'm also good at sabotaging myself. I don't take my meds like I should. (Nurses think we know more than the docs!!! --sometimes it's true!) It's easy to give advice--but not take it.
You said you do see a doc. Please call him if you feel out of control. If you do need to go to a mental health facility, there's no shame in that. It takes a strong and courageous person to ask for help. Even if it's to just get over a bump in the road. We ALL need help at one time or another! If the suicidal thoughts won't go away. TALK to someone, but please also talk to the professionials. There is always someone at a mental health faciity 24/7.If you were having a heart attack, you'd seek help. (I hope)
Like it was mentioned before--get outside, walk, go to the park or somewhere. Breath! Take big, cleansing breathes!! Stay away from alcohol and drugs.
It takes alot of courage to leave the JWs. Remember, "this too will pass." Relaxation tapes and visualization helps.
You are the most imoprtant person, take care of you. We are all here for you! You will get thru this!!
(((((joelbear)))))
shelley
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Cygnus
One of my therapists once told me that chronic boredom stems from repressed anger. And a lot of people (me included!) will turn to drugs or alcohol to help alleviate the mounting pressure on the brain. I know how it feels, Joel. You just want the globe to stop spinning so you can step off and have everyone leave you alone. I'm going to dedicate a post to you.
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LyinEyes
((((((((( Joel ))))))))))) I wrote a longer reply, but I always erase things , when I feel I reveal too much of myself. But , just know, that I think I know what you are feelings and all I can say is just hang on........hang on and take your meds, go to your therapy and keep reaching out to others. It is hard to wait to feel better, it is hard to wait on the pain to go away, but it will,,,,,,,,just hang on.
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Billygoat
Just think of yourself as a tough exotic nut like me ... a Macadamia Nut! Mmmm. Tough on the outside - it takes 300 pounds to crack the shell; but oh so Yummy on the inside, and only grows in the tropics and sub-tropics! Primary plantations are in Australia and Hawaii! Pure heaven.
I like that! I'm a nut too!
I just had a bit of an epiphany on the elevator.
I am extremely claustrophobic. I do not like being closed in.
I think this exists for my mental and emotional states as well as my physical state.
This exchange is helping me a lot. Please keep it coming.
Joel, I'm not claustrophobic, but this reminded me of my latest epiphany - emotionally I can be claustrophobic. I have a really hard time with abusive authority figures. I can handle authority figures when they've garnered my respect, but when someone is controlling, selfish, two-faced, abusive, and expects everyone to respect them without them earning it...I harbor resentment until it boils over. (Reminds me of my father, so of course I have an issue with it!) I have a tendency to lash out at that point. Never to my benefit. I'm trying to see now where my "triggers" are with certain people and be very careful about my reactions. I can't control them, but I can control ME.
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misanthropic
((((Joelbear)))))
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joelbear
Something is definitely physically wrong with my brain that my meds are not addressing.
It is time to see a psychiatrist.