Hey Deacon, I know excatly what you are talking about. My last meeting was three years ago this coming Oct. I was soooo unhappy going there I would leave in tears and that last meeting I thought why are you doing this to yourself,so i never went back. You know how it is if you aren't spending every spare second out in service you are not in the click. In fact you are nothing to those self-rightous buttheads. And would you believe that it took anyone there until June awhole 8 months to even see why I had never been back!? And the "elder" lives right on the same street as me!!!!!!!! So much for caring for the flock, huh? Well I'm soooo much happier I really love life again so hang in there it will get better as you go along.*s*