Alchemist.
First of all...........Every single comment here to you is sound and kind. Please take note of that as you read through the responses. You have not been made to feel foolish or unacceptable by these people on this forum. And your' post was responded too very quickly. Some to ask why and others to offer comfort.........
You must be interpreting the lack of contact from those who came to your' door as a form of rejection from Jehovah or the Christ....... It's not.
It is because they are not the sensitive group that you may have thought they were.......Collectively speaking, this religion has changed so much over the past ten years, that you will be shocked at the shallowness of it all.
You may need to fulfill your' desire to go back to this religion more urgently now. Especially since you have experienced a neglectful lack of interest on their part.
I sobbed when something like this happened to me, for it happens a lot more than you think. I just want to say that you are not rejected by God, for no human has that right or power. Please stay with this forum and share your' story if it helps..( the bits you are comfortable with)