A recurring theme seems to be staying until family wakes up.
What if that never happens, what if this is as good as it gets?
I am the only one to wake up and cannot bring myself to go any more. I'm not disfellowshipped but I know,
they now view me as weak, which makes for some awkward moments when you run into one of them and
they look at you with that mixture of pity and contempt, and try to "encourage" you with the latest news from
the cong, the obligatory "we miss you" even though it's obvious they feel that you have to come back to
meetings before they will actually show it. The ball is your court for them to show their conditional love.
I have to ask myself at times "wouldn't it be easier to just go and pretend, until I know what to do?"
So I appreciate that there are those of you who say it is just not worth it. Thanks.