Posts by codeblue

my mother just told me that my brother was told by his elders that because he attended my daughter's wedding, he was not going to be allowed any privileges, including "handling the microphones".

my elder friend that also went to the wedding told me he was being deleted too.

codeblue

Min: I for one feel bad for what you are experiencing. The obvious lack of love and the unscrupulous rulings even though we know they can happen, still are quite a shocker for us.

I have had 2 JW sisters that have found out from other sources that I have seen the UN website and have cracked down on me....it HURTS. One by one I am loosing my jw sisters and relatives...

I am sorry that you felt you can't express yourself during this time....don't stop just because one poster has made you feel bad for doing such....WE care about you!

many hugs to you right now,

CodeBlue

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hi, i,m new to this board,although i've been lurking around for some time now and just wanted to say a big thankyou to lots of you,who without realizing it have helped me alot as i get used to life as an ex jw.

its really good to know that others have had similar thoughts and feelings since leaving and that i'm not the only one who's had doubts or questioned the lack of love in an organization that feels it holds the monopoly on the stuff!

it's great to know i'm normal!!!

codeblue

Welcome

Yes, this board is extremely helpful. There are a lot of very kind people here.

CodeBlue

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I'm new and need advice

by lucky in

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hello everyone.. i am new to this board (although i have "lurked" on and off for the past few years and feel that i know many of you .

i will give a brief bit of background and then ask for some advice.

my mom was baptized when i was very young and i was raised in the truth, along with my siblings.

codeblue

Welcome Lucky!!!

I too was raised in the truth(tm) and about 1.5 years ago started to fade.

WE had already relocated 1,000 to a different congregation, but I never told them our previous secretary's address or phone number so they could not forward the cards............for good reason. I started having doubts, based on seeing the Dateline of May 2002 about the JW Pedophiles......then I added up all the weird occurences of lack of love with moving to 7 different congregations and figured: "somthing isn't right with this picture"..........

I think you have an excellent chance of fading..............this is of course if you can when you call your MOM or other JW family members keep a good front up.... At least the city where you live DO not have your publisher card.

take care........I hope all goes well for you!!!

hugs,

CodeBlue

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Ebay: Virgin Mary Grilled Cheese

by drwtsn32 in

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it's only 10 years old!

current bid is $5,100!.

link.

codeblue

This is definitely a weird topic..........and no I am not going dumpster diving!!!!!!!!!! lol

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Melba's sister is finally on!!!

by Shirley UJest in

well, it certainly has been an enlighting experence reading this board.

never in a million years did i think that i was going to find more than one (my sister) person that shared my experience in the jw's.

the threads that i have been reading are outstanding!!!.

codeblue

Welcome!!! Glad you are posting...

It took me a few months of reading before I could post....

I agree, I found a lot of people that felt just like me and made me feel welcomed and loved..........oh what a feeling!!!!!!!!

Looking forward to hearing more from you!

hugs,

CodeBlue

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Hi! I'm not new here

by Elsewhere in

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i've been here for awhile... but i still wanted to say hello!.

codeblue

Elsewhere: how are you doing? Are you still depressed over your dream house? I felt so bad for you....

Please tell me you are "ok"...

hugs,

CodeBlue

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Deja Vu?

by heart2heart in

do you ever experience "deja vu" - the feeling of having experienced the exact same moment before?

sometimes this happens to me - usually when it happens i can vaguely remember having a dream about it, and sometimes i can remember exactly what is going to happen next because the dream is so vivid (funny...when i remember the dream, i can remember thinking "this is going to happen...i remember this too..." deja vu of deja vu???).

does anyone know anything about deja vu or have any explanations?

codeblue

Yes, I have experienced Deja Vu...........and it is from a past dream.......

I sit there "feeling" like I am viewing a previously seen movie..........it is definitely a weird feeling.

CodeBlue

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Fading, but I dont think I can do it

by vitty in

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ive been fading for about 7 months now, but i dont know if i can carry it off.. i was really upset by a family member, had a couple of drinks then phoned my sister, whoes not a jw, ( for a bit of sympathy) but then i revealed too much information about my fading.

the thing is shes going on holiday with my other sister who is a jw, now im scared she might tell her.

she wouldnt do it on pupose.. i feel im in quick sand, drowning, i would love to tell the way i really feel, but cant take the shunning.will this ever end?

codeblue

I started fading 1.5 years ago............

I must say I feel like a "double agent" with my JW family..........at first I didn't mind not telling how I really felt....we all know the consequences IF and When we do.....

When I would not reveal what I was really thinking or doing or leading them on that I was doing just as they would, I remembered that "theocratic warfare" is the same....The WTBS believes in not revealing everything to us or not telling us the whole story. They don't consider themselves "liars".

In the last few months, a couple of my JW sisters have found out a few of my new found info (my new husband blabbed a couple things we learned the first time he met one of them---sigh)..........which they have treated me horribly....The one acted like Nazi-Hitler and hung up on me...............the other was "nice" about her words but still I was not given RESPECT for my views.

I must say, maybe it is a good thing they have found out...it is very hard to keep up "appearances as a double-agent". Now I am waiting for JW sister #3 to call and put me down.........(I don't think I can handle any more pain right now, I have been going thru quite a grieving process because I feel they don't love me anymore).

Every action in our life has a reaction.

What reaction can you handle better??? It is up to you.

Just know we are here to support you on any decision you make, because we respect you and truly care about YOU.

Sending you many hugs... (cause I know what you are going thru and feel your pain)

CodeBlue