i made a medium level mistake at work today, and when i make mistakes it really shakes me up and takes me a long time to recover.
it completely rattles me, makes me feel awful about myself.
my mind keeps going back to the mistake reliving how i could have let it happen.
This topic hits so close...
We were told that perfection is possible.
And we were told that we can strive to make over our personalities in this system.
So many of us equated that with that we can be close to perfect if we just.... try a little harder.
Problem is a little harder never lets up. Then we become neurotic.
Ripe for the picking.
one of the things that gave me confidence in life was that i believed i had the almighty creator/god watching over me, directing me, guiding my every step, protecting me from harm, and answering my prayers.
i now know that is not the case anymore.
i finally stopped praying.
sometimes i get a strong curiosity to start dabbling into other religions, other faiths, you know?
really different ones such as islam, judaism, hinduism, etc.. has anyone here looked into something else?
has your spirituality been satisfied by any other than christianity?.
Sofia,
I get it. After I left JWs, my curiosity about everything was so unquenchable.
I followed my instincts wherever my research wanted to take me. I read everything I could get my hands on and visited places that were forbidden in JW land.
I hope you find contentment and peace where ever it leads you.
i don't know how so many who seem to be certain this life is it after being jw's seem to happily accept it and be fine with it.
i am living and trying to live as if this is it.
i want there to be a future life/afterlife, something, but i see how fast life comes and goes and even if i'm living it to the fullest, there is no peace for me with the thought this may be it.
Accepting that this life is the only one makes it more vital.
I don't know. That just makes me figure it's all pointless and why bother.
Not happy and fine. Just "finally, I get off this tiring, meaningless thing."
I'm in too deep of a depression right now about this clusterf* world.
just found out the memorial is this coming friday, which is good friday, don't recall that happening before, or has it?.
just seems strange that the dubs would celebrate their only special day on the same day that christendom celebrates as well..
The moon on Memorial night always seems to be very cool.
phae
15 years ago i joined this forum under a generic alias.. if it weren't for the fact that i have close family weaved into this tapestry of a religion i think i could have moved on long ago.. when you're connected, you're connected.. to those in the same boat, you're not alone.. we get it, and you.. hugs,.
phae.
15 years ago I joined this forum under a generic alias.
If it weren't for the fact that I have close family weaved into this tapestry of a religion I think I could have moved on long ago.
When you're connected, you're connected.
To those in the same boat, you're not alone.
We get it, and you.
Hugs,
phae
i've been looking on this site for some time but never posted.
i'll give a little about myself, but not too much.
i'm a ex-bethelite ( brooklyn )and currently serving as an elder (10 years) (thinking about stepping down) on the service committee.
Thanks for sharing, Mr Theocratic.
Without a doubt, I know my 70-something parents believe to the core and act accordingly.
I can't imagine what must go through their minds about it all at this point in their life.
phae
oh, there is one brother that keeps prattling on about "the 5 pillars of faith and worship".
- prayer.
- personal study.
I was raised with the same "five fingers" as life is to short described.
I was so fond of my study mentor when I was a teen. She and her husband took me under their wing in the mid-80s and I hung on her every word. I could have sworn there was another way the "5 things" were described to make it easy to remember. That red Live Forever book seemed like the end all.
Here we are 30 years later.
Wow.
phae
was just thinking of how i used to sit in audience growing up at the kh hearing of "those in noah's day" eating and drinking and what not during some wt article.
i thought, "those poor people, doing what their hearts desire, and then perishing because they were not people of jehovah.".
they lived, partied and died.. we don't live any differently today.. we are those people.. we thought we were the exception.. fools we were.. phae.
Was just thinking of how I used to sit in audience growing up at the KH hearing of "those in Noah's day" eating and drinking and what not during some WT article. I thought, "those poor people, doing what their hearts desire, and then perishing because they were not people of Jehovah."
They lived, partied and died.
We don't live any differently today.
We are those people.
We thought we were the exception.
Fools we were.
phae
all they want is some spiritually-qualified publishers blind individuals who believe they are god's mouthpiece on earth.
no wonder their artwork is so poor.. .
christian congregation of jehovahs witnesses2821 route 22, patterson, ny 12563-2237 phone: (845) 306-11001/8/15-e usjanuary 8, 2015to all congregations in the united states branch territoryre: art skills needed at betheldear brothers:the beautiful illustrations in our printed publications and on jw.org serve as teaching aidsthat emphasize spiritual truths from the bible.
I just want to know, how can someone be qualified for this type of work without seeking higher education?
Osmosis? As if the skills automatically embed themselves within people without professional training. And I like how they are sure to mention further down in the letter:
Please note that we are not encouraging individuals to pursue higher education or university
degrees to obtain skills related to art and graphic design. (w13 10/15 pp. 15-16 pars. 13-14)
Lovely mixed message. They need specialized degreed skills at Bethel (preferable volunteer), 'but YOU shouldn't go and pursue training for them. How dare you aspire to wanting to be a graphic designer! We'll never have a need like this again... But, if you already possess these specialized skills and obvious experience (Art Director), come on down!'
I'm sure they'll be looking for a BA + on a resume for that laundry list.
Hypocrites.
Phaedra
