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I'm sitting at the Regional Convention after having been disfellowshipped only a couple weeks ago. I don't understand why the elders encourage you to come to this. I understand wanting you to be encouraged, but my entire time so far has been seeing people in my hotel, around the city, and in the stadium that I've known all my life look at me and light up a little like old friends do then quickly remember my status and divert their eyes to the ground and walk away. I understand people shouldn't talk to me. But it's hard swallowing this as a loving provision. I should've saved the money on a hotel and stayed home. I'm not going to get anything out of the program. You know how you can feel people in your own hall looking at you when you're df'd, just multiply that by a few hundred. Now I guess my weekend is anxious vomiting and watching some dramas.
Sorry for the rant. Needed to say this to SOMEone. Having grown up in the truth I don't have a lot of best friends I Can talk to now about my situation.
Edit: don't want to seem self inflicting. I'm here with my wife and baby. Don't want to Just leave her.