reading others typically crazy jw experiences has made me remember one particularly distressing experience...
i did a careful fade long before I had even heard of the term and I didn't know of anyone else who did it.
I was an unwanted stepchild, and in all honesty a very difficult one I suspect, I had two much younger siblings, and was always excluded and the black sheep, as ina serious uber JW there is no room for any sort of noncomity, and I was never destined to stay a JW, or have anytime for religion i suspect.
I went to my grandmothers funeral, and the elder giving her talk, a very nice man, after all the preaching mentioned her TWO grandchildren of one gender...she had three and I am of the other gender.
it was a lightning bolt moment, I got up and walked out...
now with the benefit of hindsight it was no more than what I should have expected...
funny how things bring long forgotten memories up...