This is up to YOU, and YOU alone.
I chose to leave. I too was an Elder for many years. I have no ill will for those who stay. It is a safe life.
I do miss my family, but it is they who will not talk to me.
Life outside can be great, however I do see many on this site that are messed up. No doubt they were taht way when they were in too.
Have no fear!!! Anyone who wants CAN get out!
Never been happier!