I held on for years thinking that in some way it was still the truth & the guys in charge were good honest people & it was just imperfect men that needed to be constantly forgiven & excuses made for there errors & personalities.
It was'nt until I was forced to see the total lack of love & honest care even to the point of there being no provision for genuine love that I finally started to see it for what I now believe it to be.....Totally man made with mans agendas & purposes.
After that it was a slippary slope to freedom.
Phats.