“Freethinking76”:
“should i go to my new hall a few times before disapering?”
You have to ask yourself what would happen if everyone did become aware of your attempted fading, and if so, then how much would it really matter to you anyway?
I know that the big catch is whatever close family relationships you would like to preserve. However, if you have discovered the real truth about the arrogant and corrupt Watchtower organization (as I and many, many others have, and it looks like you have too) and your personal integrity and independence are more important to you than whatever negative consequences might possibly be with your family relationships, then I would say to just go for it! Yes, in that case I would say to just cut the umbilical cord to that artificial and very much contrived “mother organization” (try finding that word, “organization,” in the Bible!), the ridiculous and oppressive precepts of which have been thrust upon people without question – cut it right off and set yourself free! Remember, you owe it to yourself to be free. And if any so-called “friends” can’t except that, then you know that they were never really “friends” to begin with.
And when that day comes when you can get completely out of the prison, with it’s spying Watchtowers and its secretive agents and informants, then you can just take a deep breath and finally say, Good riddance!