Ok Here I am adding more to "My Story"
A couple weeks ago my dads dog (Jade, Full bread rotweiler) had Full bread rotweiler puppies. Of course my dad being the dog lover he is already has two dogs and is going to keep one of the puppies(The biggest male). You're all probably wondering what this has to do with "My story"...well my dad hasn't been paying child support for many years now,and according to my mom he owes me thousands of dollars. and finally my point is that he keeps 2 dogs plus he might be keeping the puppy, he spends his money on dog food and all the needs that the dog *needs*. And wastes all of his money on them, but yet owes me alot of cash.You see it's only money and doesnt mean alot to me if he pays it or not, but the fact is he obviously doesn't care for my needs and his 4 other kids.
All the neglecting and abuse he put towards me and Chennelle is unbelievable. With me it was mentally, Always wondering why he never came to see me. It always left a few questions. Does he even love me? Does he even care or does he think I am a mistake? I'm not totally sure. I just gave up trying to figure out those answers to the questions that I ask myself. and to my sister he physically abused her. But he no longers hits the kids any more, just yells and goes crazy all the time like he does wanna hit them but wont.
My mom, who was the only one who only really actually took care of me(besides my nanny and grampy) had alot of stress on her because of his lies and not paying the child support. She has now given up on him and the rest of the JW in his family. It bothered her at first but she has grown to realize that true friends wouldn't do that, and when they were growing up they weren't the nicest people to her especially my father. He would always hit her(playing around to bug her) and she would tell him to stop because he would keep hitting her in the same spot over and over again and it slowly started hurting and she would hit him to make him stop but he would get even more mad at her and freak ouy on her.
The only thing that my dad really actually bought for me was a rabbit, it was old and its dying date was due sooner than he knew... anyways he bought me this rabbit wihtout confirming with my mom. brought it over and gave it to me in a cage, but he didnt get any food. I know buying me that rabbit was in his best intrests but it just laid more stress on my moms shoulders. Well the rabbit died a week later and i thought it was asleep but mom told me that it was dead and i cried more than i cried when we had to get rid of one of my cats because my dad bought me that rabbit, for me and me only! It was more special to me than anything I had gotten.
Things like being in the Religion stick with you more than you know, you have all these memories of these little things and you don't get over them as easily as you would like.
But I'm off to school I will be back afterwards.
C.C