Whenever I used to go to a witness gathering or wedding, I would always just sort of hang out in the background, occasionally talking to someone but never really joining in. Generally I just sort of felt disconnected from everyone, like I didn't belong. Of course, part of that is probably just my personality...
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Are you a "party person"?
by logansrun ini went to a party last night.
as i stood there enjoying the gratifying numbness of a bourban, i couldn't help but feel a vast disconnect between myself and the scene at hand: ridiculously loud music with the bass at three times it's normal level, sweaty bodies smoking with abandon the filthy weeds between their fingers, people coming in the door shouting a barbaric "what up!
" someone's on the porch getting sick.
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How many of us has been through therapy as a result...
by petespal2002 in.
of leaving the organisation?.
did it help?
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I went to a psychologist for a while, though it was mainly because my mother thought I needed to learn how to be less introverted. The thing is though, I think part of the reason for my being introverted was due to growing up as a witness. My psychologist seemed to think I was fairly normal, if a bit shy, up until one point that is.
I got baptised out of a sincere desire to serve God and commit myself to a spiritual path, but the exclusivist theology of watchtower began to frustrate me more and more over the years. Eventually, I got to the point where I couldn't take it anymore and just sort of blew up to my psychologist (I wasn't yelling mind you). I spent almost a whole hour telling him about how life is totally meaningless, either a vengeful god is going kill us all because we once saw harry potter, we're an illusion, or our lives are a tragic accident of athiestic chance and we're nothing more than highly evolved pond scum. The poor guy seemed a tad schocked, I had never vented quite like that before. He commented that he had never meet another person with the same worries as me.
Now, after I no longer believe the WTS owns God, I can say that I'm much happier.
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How many of you were the "perfect" guy/girl?
by talesin inwere you considered a 'good mate'?.
did you feel like a piece of meat?.
guys/girls' opinions welcome.
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Ya know its funny, I probably wasn't considered the most spiritual young brother in my hall since I didn't reach out for that many priveleges, but I got in less trouble than everyone.
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Well, I suppose an introduction is in order
by Enishi ini've been lurking on this site for the past two months and just now decided to post.
i was raised a witness, and got baptised only a couple years ago.
however, shortly after my baptism i started having doubts, and began to suffer from low self esteem.
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Enishi
Thanks everyone.
i think, it's time to stop asking questions of the Elders untill you know how you are going to exit the cult.
I tend to avoid the elders now. The only one I actually felt comfortable talking to stepped down over six months ago.
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The Devil, The Original Serpent?
by Faraon inhttp://www.perseus.tufts.edu/cgi-bin/ptext?doc=perseus%3atext%3a1999.01.0146&query=whiston%20chapter%3d%232&layout=&loc=1.1
flavious josephus was a jewish historian, who lived around the times near when jesus was supposed to be alive.
(from 37 ce to circa 100 ce).
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I don't know if this is true or not, but Moses might have kept his Egyptian name since it was in Egypt that he learned most of his spell-craft and esoteric knowledge. Egypt used to be to the ancient world what India is now to the industrialized western world. It was from both them and the Babylonians that the Jews recieved much of their religious inspiration, and then adapted it to their own culture.
The sudden change God makes between a diety of vengeance in the old testament and a diety of love the new testament was something I had always been questioning for quite some time. Its part of what made me become a Gnostic. The term "personality", as we understand it, is to limiting to apply to Absolute, it creates all sorts of nonsense.
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The Devil, The Original Serpent?
by Faraon inhttp://www.perseus.tufts.edu/cgi-bin/ptext?doc=perseus%3atext%3a1999.01.0146&query=whiston%20chapter%3d%232&layout=&loc=1.1
flavious josephus was a jewish historian, who lived around the times near when jesus was supposed to be alive.
(from 37 ce to circa 100 ce).
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Enishi, Being washed clean in the blood actually goes back to the ancient worship of childbirth. Before the patriarchal gods nature was like a god, procreation was divine. And there was a fear of women who could bleed and not die. Many men began rites of bleeding to immitate womens mentrual cycles which used to coinside with the lunar cycles.
Interesting, I had read somewhere that the ancients associated the process of procreation with the creation of the universe. It makes sense, considering that there are many symbolic representations of positive/negative, or active/passive forces in the first books of Genesis, like the the spirit of God moving over the waters and whatnot.
In ancient religions women and snakes represented wisdom. You can see why the bronze age god of war wouldn't like that, even in Egypt the god's wife was always in the house of Pharoah.
In Gnosticism, Sophia, or the female element of divine man represented wisdom.
Did all the supposed wars of Israel in the promised land take place during the bronze age? I had always wondered why God seemed more violent in the early books of Genesis, it almost seemed as if his personality changed along with the writers perception of him.
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Why I LOVE my FREEDOM #567!
by DebraDoll inbecause i can go to an awesome halloween dance hosted at a huge local cave with my big daddy demon-pimp as his ape bitch and have the time of my life!
and.....he lets me stick stuff in his ear!
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For the first time in my life, I started handing out candy to trick or treaters. I must say, it was actually rather fun, I especially liked seeing all the neat costumes kids came up with. I saw one who couldn't have been older than five, dressed as the grim reaper.
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Your Favorite Scary Movie?
by Valis ini watched this on bravo last night.
so what's yer favorite movie for spookiness on halloween?.
creature: "i have love in me the likes of which you can scarcely imagine.
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Enishi
Hey Enishi!
Hubby's favorite movie! He says the trilogy ('Night of...' 'Dawn of...' and 'Day of...') is unsurpassed.
I've never seen it myself. I prefer Things and Aliens busting out of ppl's guts, personally.
I heard that they're doing a remake for Dawn of the Dead.
Speaking of zombie movies, I once saw Return of the Living Dead. The very next day, I made the horrible mistake of talking about it to the witnesses in my car group. Boy, did I ever get flayed!
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Your Favorite Scary Movie?
by Valis ini watched this on bravo last night.
so what's yer favorite movie for spookiness on halloween?.
creature: "i have love in me the likes of which you can scarcely imagine.
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The Ring is one of the scariest movies I've seen in a very long time. It gets under your skin on a psychological level.
The movie that scared me the most though was without a doubt Night of the Living Dead, the old one. I saw it when I was only 7 years old, and God did it ever scare me! I used to have nightmares about that movie for months. The boy I saw it with did a splended job of running in the fear too, he kept telling me all these stories about a man who was buried alive in his basement. Just the concept alone was enough to terrify me. Being slowly eaten alive by zombies would have to be one of the most grisly ways to die imaginable.
Of course, now I think its silly.
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Clothed with the Sun
by Enishi inin case anyone is interested, here's an absolutely fascinating online book i found.
it explains the mystical interpretation behind the scriptures and various mythologies.
although a bit out there, there's a lot of good information.. http://www.thenazareneway.com/clothed%20with%20the%20sun/table_of_contents.htm
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Enishi
In case anyone is interested, here's an absolutely fascinating online book I found. It explains the mystical interpretation behind the scriptures and various mythologies. Although a bit out there, there's a lot of good information.
http://www.thenazareneway.com/Clothed%20With%20The%20Sun/table_of_contents.htm