Welcome to the board, Zarco. Your situation reminds of a number of others, and I don't envy any of these folks.
It can be very difficult to figure out what to do if you leave the Witnesses, but I can tell you that it works itself out pretty well when you do. But you have to look way beyond the narrow confines of the JW religion for this to happen. If you stay in the same old mold -- which is easy to do, especially if you were raised a JW -- you won't make any progress.
As far as what several posters have said regarding not staying with a corrupt religious organization, I agree completely. But you have to find your own comfort level. Based on my personal experience, you're likely to become extremely frustrated after some years go by, as you realize more and more the amount of nonsense and even outright falsehood being taught in God's name, and realize that God really isn't going to do anything about it. The desire to "wait on Jehovah" is rooted in the false notion that JWs really are, in some way, "God's organization" but have just gone astray. The Bible gives its history of the Jews, where God miraculously chose the Israelites to be his people, based not on what they did, but on promises made to their ancestors. Nothing of the kind applies to Jehovah's Witnesses. C. T. Russell gradually invented the religion, and it has evolved steadily since its founding, just as all other new religions do. The only 'evidence' there is that God appointed JW leaders to be this mythological "faithful slave" is their own claims -- quite in contrast to the biblical history of the Jews. So comparing the JWs with the ancient Jews is simply wrong, and assumes that the JW religion is basically right about this. It's this kind of staying in the same old mold that I'm talking about.
Note clearly what Luke 21:8 says: "Look out that you are not misled; for many will come on the basis of my name, saying, ?I am he,? and, ?The due time has approached.? Do not go after them." JW leaders have consistently claimed "I am he" in the sense of claiming to speak for God and Christ (cf. w64 11/1 pp. 645-6). They have consistently and falsely proclaimed, "the due time has approached" in all manner of literature, including books and booklets with titles such as The Time Is At Hand, The Kingdom Is At Hand, God's Kingdom of a Thousand Years Has Approached, The Approaching Peace of a Thousand Years, etc. etc. etc. If you're really a Bible believer, can you reconcile this command from Jesus with your continued association with a group that he pretty much said was to be avoided?
I wish you success in avoiding the wolves.
AlanF