I'm proud of you!!!
Will you still be able to talk with us on the board? I would really miss you, if you couldn't. I always look forward to your comments......
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New Contract
by Yerusalyim ini just re-enlisted in the army today.
i now have an indefinite contract...i'm officially a career military hack.. salute.
i am an american soldier.
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Strawberryfieldsforever
Little toe,
I'm just having a bad day. I take care of my alcoholic aunt. She is my mother's sister. I get sad sometimes. I hope I'm doing all I can do to help her. I ask direction, but get nothing. Like I said....it's just a bad day.
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Strawberryfieldsforever
The last week, I have begun to question if anyone is really out there.....I used to think I was praying to someone, but now I wonder. I think I'm going through a crisis. I ask for help in what I do and receive none.......I'm very lost today......
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What was your favourite topic when preaching door to door?
by JH inwhen i was going door to door, i liked talking about the signs of the end, earthquakes, wars, and all the signs that jesus gave.
i liked talking about how the world was doomed and that only the kingdom would set things straight.
what did you like talking about going door to door?
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I would talk about their pets or yard landscaping. I would talk about that as long as I could before I had to get to the point. Then all the fun was gone.
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Are You Still Torn, Wondering Whether You Made The Right Decision To Leave?
by minimus inare you 100% sure you're doing the right thing??
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100% sure. No regrets and I'll NEVER go back!
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My new issue.....
by Joysome inas i've said before i'm very lost and torn and confused.
part of me still believes in the things that i was taught as a jw.
1. armageddon.
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Joysome
I'm so sorry you're confused. I was too for a long time. It sounds like you were happy in the religion. But....there are nagging thoughts? I had those too. I think being on this board will help. I know that you differ with alot of people here, but it's good to listen and just take it in. It's doesn't mean you have to agree. I always thought JW's had tunnel vision. They only look straight ahead, never to the side. There are interesting things on the side. If you took a trip and only looked at the road ahead, you would miss so many beautiful things. There are lots of interesting points and lots of information. I'm happy that you are open minded enough to look off to the side. I feel for you. I lost my mom. It breaks my heart too. But it is her choice not to talk to me. I still love her. But I also love my new life. If she wants to be in it, I will welcome her with loving arms. I'm really glad you're on the board Joysome! Hope we can have lots of comments together!
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Zdravstvuite
by Sneaky Russian inhello my american friends, and those from other places
i was a witness for almost 20 years, and have been through a lot to offer my story today.
my mother was conned by the jehovah's witnesses when she was just forteen years old after sitting in with a schoolfriend on a bible study back in england.
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Strawberryfieldsforever
Welcome Sneaky Russian!
Please come back and visit the board. We would love to keep hearing from you! And I was wondering also about that thing hanging on Nosferatu's head. Don't you find it quite........strange?
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I was a good kid because I was raised by Bible Principles
by Nosferatu insometimes when i go visit my mother, she mentions that i was a good kid because i was raised by bible principles.
i was crying for absolutely no reason at all.
around 11:30, i felt completely ill. i went up to my teacher and told him i was going to see the nurse.
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Nosferatu! I'm so sorry for what you had to go through.....
I went through almost the same thing as you.....I was always the new kid because my Dad was in the military. We moved alot. I was so afraid of going in the new school because the first thing I had to endure was the flag salute. Then I was the new kid on top of that. I was always sick with stomach pains. I would lay in the nurses office and cry and cry. I wasn't even happy about my mother comming to get me. I just wanted to disappear. I invented this imaginary friend. He would talk to me and tell me it was OK and don't cry. I started to depend on this imaginary friend and withdraw from people. Even my mother. I would have these silent conversations with him in my head. Healthy? I don't know, but it helped me through some bad times. I also had bad times in music. I loved music! But at Christmas time I had to sit off to the side and watch the others sing. In my school days they had the projector that put the words up on the screen for everyone to see. It was dark in the room I'm so glad it was dark cause it gave me the opportunity to cry. I couldn't join choir for the Christmas concerts or any of the others. I was an outcast....except for my imaginary friend. Valentines day was really bad for me. I would watch everyone open their homemade boxes and laugh and kid eachother. They even got gum and candy. Sometimes the kids felt sorry for me and gave me cards with candy. I felt guilty eating them cause I knew it was wrong to take part. I ate it anyway and felt terrible and would cry when I got home....and then there was the birthday celebrations in school. I could never eat the treats the other kids brought from home. I had to go and sit somewhere else and draw pictures. Even drawing pictures was hard at holidays. I couldn't draw anything in art like the others. The teacher always had a visit from my mom so she knew what I could and couldn't draw. It never fit in with the other drawings when they were hung up in the hallway.
As I got older, I couldn't join anything. I was quite good at chess. I even beat the chess teacher! But I couldn't join chess or track or basketball or anything. I had to wear dresses that came to my knees when everyone was wearing mini skirts (70's) and was so embarrased. I used to love to wear skirts to school because I could roll them up on the bus ride to school, so at least they were a little shorter and didn't draw so much attention. I had to remember tho to unroll them on the ride home. I was so withdrawn from everyone that I didn't get into any trouble. Like you said, our parents think they did good by the way they raised us. Yes and No. I didn't do drugs or have sex or run around with the bad crowd, but I was emotionally unstable and withdrawn and very unhappy. I was so envious of the other kids cause their parents let them join clubs and choir and such. I was so left out. But I still had my imaginary friend. Even in high school. He would always tell me it was OK. Don't cry.
Now when I look back, I think the religion kept me out of trouble, but didn't give me the tools I needed in adult life. I am still a big loner. It's hard to make friends. But slowly things are getting a little better. I feel sorry for all the children who are witnesses. I've endured what they are going through. My heart breaks for them. Some are stronger than others. Some won't make it and have baggage to deal with for their whole lives. So Nosferatu, hang in there. I can't say your feelings will go away someday. Mine are still here, and I don't know if they'll ever leave me. School was the hardest part of my life. Thanks for listening....
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The biggest LIE you believed as a JW...
by Waymores Ghost infor me it was the belief that all people who refuse to become jws are intrinsically bad.
if someone doesn't accept the "truth", naturally it's because "satan-the-devil" has hardened their hearts.
when you're a dub, you tend to ignore the ramifications of this.
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Strawberryfieldsforever
Millions now living will never die
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Were You Ever "Marked" or Shunned?
by minimus inhow many here either were "marked" or "shunned" in some way?
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Strawberryfieldsforever
As soon as we started to fade away and start missing meetings, I noticed a big difference in the friends at the hall. They would keep a distance at the grocery store or wherever we would see them. Some would just nod when we said hello. I think they were trying to show us that we were bad association.
The funny thing now is: I consider them the worst association ever. I avoid them now at the grocery store or wherever.