Posts by cyber-sista

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Do you have anger issues because of mistreatment by JW's?

by LyinEyes in

i have been reading the thead on jw suicide the last two days and i have to admit, i am boiling mad, angry, and literally have thoughts of wanting to put my hands around some of the jw's who have abused so many......lol!!!!!!!

i realize this is not at all funny, but i do laugh at how i let this get to me to the point of fantazing of slapping some of the "higher than thou" jw's i have ran across in my life and those whom some of you decribed.

i read scully's story and wanted to choak the ones who did not pass her the emblems at the memorial.. i get so mad when i read how some of the jw's want to pass judgement on the one's who have committed suicide , saying they will not be resurrected.

cyber-sista

The anguish and the agony of having to renounce the life-long convictions of my heart.The surreal horror to learn that it was all a LIE.

I agree Danny. (Even though I only spent half my life in there). It is still surreal to me to look back on the whole ordeal with anything but anger and distain, which is more strongly triggered some times than the other, which I brought out in my topic this week..."A knock on my door and I'm still shaking". Encountering JWs--even the syrupy sweet ones who are trying to "encourage" you to get back to the meetings can still throw me into a loop of depression and then anger. I would like to think I am stronger than this, but I am only human and have been pushed "beyond what is normal". Thank you to whoever brought the point out that we are victims of victims. I agree with that one and this is why I cannot lash out at some of these like the woman at my door this week. She is a victim too. But the elders better not come around to see me this week--I could definitely say something to them right now and it would be far from "theocratic."

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Do you have anger issues because of mistreatment by JW's?

by LyinEyes in

i have been reading the thead on jw suicide the last two days and i have to admit, i am boiling mad, angry, and literally have thoughts of wanting to put my hands around some of the jw's who have abused so many......lol!!!!!!!

i realize this is not at all funny, but i do laugh at how i let this get to me to the point of fantazing of slapping some of the "higher than thou" jw's i have ran across in my life and those whom some of you decribed.

i read scully's story and wanted to choak the ones who did not pass her the emblems at the memorial.. i get so mad when i read how some of the jw's want to pass judgement on the one's who have committed suicide , saying they will not be resurrected.

cyber-sista

Sweetp--I can tell that you are sweet from your name

It hurts a lot to be branded as an evil satanic being just because you aren't in service to the Org any longer. It just seems all too unreal at times. It is very creepy too.

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Why do Jehovah's Witnesses contemplate suicide?

by Sirius Dogma in

here is an excerpt from an article i was reading.. you can read the full and much longer version here.. http://www.jwinfoline.com/documents/death/suicide.htm.

a problem common among jehovah's witnesses is the feeling that they are not going to make it to live past armageddon.

even though they keep a rigorous schedule of activities designed to earn them a righteous standing with jehovah, the witnesses themselves are keenly aware that they fall far short of the perfect standard set by god.. why do so many jehovah's witnesses consider suicide at one time or another?

cyber-sista

This mentality almost caused my children to have to grow up without a mother. And I will NEVER forgive The Christian? Congregation of Jehovah's Witnesses? for that.

(((((((((((Scully)))))))))))))))

In the final part of my JW daze I seriously contemplated ending my life. In the end I figured I was better off a live dog than a dead lion (my thinking at the time). It was a horrible thing to go through. I had been so betrayed by so many in the Org---I didn't want to see these people again and even part of my brain that was still a JW told me even if there is a new system I don't want to live with these people forever!

It's over now and I am trying to get on with my life, but I agree with you I will never forgive them for driving me to the point of suicide.

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Do you have anger issues because of mistreatment by JW's?

by LyinEyes in

i have been reading the thead on jw suicide the last two days and i have to admit, i am boiling mad, angry, and literally have thoughts of wanting to put my hands around some of the jw's who have abused so many......lol!!!!!!!

i realize this is not at all funny, but i do laugh at how i let this get to me to the point of fantazing of slapping some of the "higher than thou" jw's i have ran across in my life and those whom some of you decribed.

i read scully's story and wanted to choak the ones who did not pass her the emblems at the memorial.. i get so mad when i read how some of the jw's want to pass judgement on the one's who have committed suicide , saying they will not be resurrected.

cyber-sista

YES, lots of anger. All those years of suffering and enduring thinking it was for some greater cause and then find out it was all in vain and it was nothing more than suffering and enduring for the benefit of some corperation making money off of our pain. YES, pissed very pissed. Still trying to sort out the mess it has caused in my family and the grief and loss over 20 plus years of friendships and some family because of the inhumane WT corporation. Still pissed at the JWs who won't wake up and keep following blindly along no matter what they are told to do. Still pissed at myself for once having a part in it the suffering of others under the WT rule.

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Believable Or NOT!!!!

by Sweetp0985 in

i don't know about everyone else but i just want to get these stories of godly/demonic intervention out of my system.

hope it doesn't bore you but some are a good laugh now but i truly believed them and some i still believe.. 1. don't open that cabinet- one day my dear step mother was cleaning the kitchen and needed something out of a cabinet that was rarely used.

there was a plastic cake dish that makes this very audible noise when trying to close it(lil cheap cake from winn dixie).

cyber-sista

A sister who was a prudish type sister buys a dress at a second hand store. Whenever she puts the dress on it changes her personality and she becomes a loose talking flirtatious immoral woman--even at the KH. They finally figure out the dress is loaded with demons and they have to wrestle it away from the sister, so they can restore her to her prudish personality. This was told to me by a sister who knew the sister that it happened to.

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bethel tour today. what a joke

by johnny cip in

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i drive past patterson about once a month.

and read here about tours there.

so i stopped.

cyber-sista

Thanks John...this was very interesting-- I learned a lot just reading this topic. That WT waterfall blows me away. How absolutely tacky and in poor taste.

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Interesting phenomena regarding Witnesses

by JamesThomas in

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first, and most important: thanks to all those who read my introduction-post last saturday, and especial thanks to those who replied.

like many who have been disfellowshipped (and especially those raised in the org) i've been dragged through icy waves of agonizing hurt and anger; often followed by times of peace and letting go; only to be hit by another turbulent and bitter bout of animosity and grief.

the tides do run deep, don't they.

cyber-sista

For me, a life of brokenheartedness, confusion and sadness festered from being poisoned from a very young and innocent age. Being force fed -- by well meaning parents -- an understanding and belief in a God that would certainly kill me if I did not love Him..... THE ULTIMATE CATCH-22!!!

Noticed this was an older topic, but I am glad it popped about again. I didn't know your story Thomas, though I have read a lot of your more recent posts. You brought out some good points here and things I have been pondering lately if I am ever called to give a defense (or forced to) which is most likely. In the end it all seems like such a self serving religion. Not only do you have to serve the WT God in order to save your neck--you have to cut others off who won't serve that God because he will destoy you are human enough to show unconditional love--even to your own family (if they are out of the faith).

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A knock on my door- and I'm still shaking

by cyber-sista in

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just had a witness encounter and it shook me and i'm not sure why.

a pioneer sister just came to my door.

she has a very sweet personality--she started off with a hug.

cyber-sista

Thanks everyone...Stangely day 2 and I am still drifting in and out of a strange state of mind. I am really tired but when I lay down with my eyes closed I have these weird little JW nightmare like flashbacks. My God, the suggestion by the sister of me even going to the assembly--aaahhhhh The thought of sitting there for hours and hours with that garbage droning on an on is torture to me. So was I brainwashed--some don't think so, but if not, why am I still so twisted up coming out of this Org?

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Question about letters to society.

by laurelin in

hi.. i was reading another post about asking for your personal files.

i was wondering if anyone knew if the society send copies of letters you have sent to them to your congregation.. i recently sent them a letter asking about the old information about the 1914 generation on their website.. i received a letter back from them that didn't answer the question (what's new) but was more a slap on the wrist for even deigning to ask.

i was directed to a couple of articles about the apreciation and good use of older publications and told that older light had to be taken into regard with newer light and that older books still have their worth as long as we use newer ones as well.... talk about confusing.. anyway, i was wondering if they would send the elders in my congregation a copy of my letter to them?.

cyber-sista

I wrote the society 2 letters begging them for help--one 6 pages and one 12 pages long. I explained many things that were happening to me and others in the congo with many details about the elders that put them in a very bad light. I got one form letter back that didn't even address the issues with the elders, but just one of my questions. It was much like a form letter with a few scriptures in it and some old WT articles. The elders received a copy of this letter too, but the elders told me that they didn't think I had told the whole story (or the true story) and the society had asked the elders for their version of the story. Later when I hadn't been to meetings in a long time an elder called me to get me to "encourage" me back to the meetings and I asked him if they had ever got a letter back from the society in regard to their arguing my letter. He said "yes", and was very vague about the information in the letter, but said that the society had in the end defended the elder's point of view and not mine. After that I just gave it all up. If the society was defending these men in their lunacy I was over it. I had also contacted the branch and talked to the CO and they all defended the elders--in the end nobody came to the rescue--no knights in shining armour--there was no one there to defend me or any of us--there was nothing to prevent these men from doing whatever they wanted to.

When I got my letter from the society a couple of the sisters commented that "it was like a letter from Jehovah himself" though it looked like a form letter to me--cold and impersonal.

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Prepare for an encounter with a JW

by Sirona in

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after reading cyber-sister's post about a jw who knocked on her door, i thought it might be a good idea to talk about preparing ourselves for the almost inevitable time when a jw will try to "preach to us" and try to get us to return.. like cyber-sister i met a jw fairly recently who immediately started preaching to me.

she said jehovah had removed his holy spirit from me and that is why i can't see the "truth".

at the time i was taken unawares and didn't really know what to say, apart from that i don't believe it anymore.

cyber-sista

Thanks Sirona for posting this,

Strange thing was I thought I was prepared. Actually, I have prepared to talk to any elders who come around. Because of what they did to me I have a lot harder line for them. I hold them accountable for many things that happened to me and to others in the congo and I wouldn't mind slamming them with something . It was this sister though she is so dense and in denial and not listening or hearing anything I was trying to say that was freaking me out. She had that glazed over look in her eyes and she was droning on robotically in this real sweet voice. I felt like I was trapped in her dialog. She is a victim. She is like a sleepwalking person and I felt it could be dangerous to wake her up. It was creepy.

Looking forward to reading any suggestions here.