Posts by aojumper

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It's my birthday, I am mourning my lost childhood.

by aojumper in

i am so angry right now, so hurt that my family allowed my brain to be washed and hung out to dry, and then have the nerve to tell me i am on the wrong path.

i wonder how do people let others do this to them?!

i wish i had kept the strength that i remember i had as a very young child and told them all to go to hell!

aojumper

Thanks guys,

I am not usually feeling sorry for myself, It just get's to this day and I remember when I was six years old, and I walked out all sleepy headed that morning and turned on Sesame Street, and there was a cartoon of a little girl doing cartwheels, saying, "Six,Six, I'm six years old today" and my mother turned to me and said, "Your six today!" That was it. No appreciation for the gift that God gave her (and I was a gift ), no realization that God did and does celebrate my birth. Just... your six today...

While most children at least got to feel special one day a year, I got shoved into JWism. I think that was the last time I remember being slightly alive until I left almost 20 years later.

I have pretty much gotten on with my life, I have started a company, I have a wonderful husband, some great friends, and I love to celebrate others birthdays, and holidays, It just gets me down sometimes, when I look at my little brother who turned 13 on thursday, and all I could do was get him a balloon cause he can't feel special, he's just a JW. It kills me.

Dave, I am going on a green bible hunt, and I'm gonna start doing my laudry at a mat. That's awesome advice. thank you

K

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Before You Actually Stopped Meetings, How Many HATED Being There?

by minimus in

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friends

when i listen to anything at the meetings, it is with a critical eye.

i really can't stand going, especially today.

did you feel that the meetings were grating and extremely irritating, just before you stopped going altogether?

aojumper

I, like Francois, am very angry that I let them dictate to me when and how my time should be spent, when I became of age. That I sat there, listening to the bull****, wanting to scream if I heard one more Dogmatic, JW concocted phrase come from the stage.

K

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It's my birthday, I am mourning my lost childhood.

by aojumper in

i am so angry right now, so hurt that my family allowed my brain to be washed and hung out to dry, and then have the nerve to tell me i am on the wrong path.

i wonder how do people let others do this to them?!

i wish i had kept the strength that i remember i had as a very young child and told them all to go to hell!

aojumper

I am so angry right now, so hurt that my family allowed my brain to be washed and hung out to dry, and then have the nerve to tell me I am on the wrong path.

I wonder how do people let others do this to them?! Why?! I wish I had kept the strength that I remember I had as a very young child and told them all to go to hell! I wish I had never allowed them to incur the damage that they did.

I want to go to brooklyn and single-handedly choke each and every pompous, prick of the WBTS till their scrawny legs kick one last feeble time. I want to drive by a Kingdom hall and chuck a Molotov Cocktail through the window.

My inner child hurts.

K

39

Dub Fads

by In_between_days in

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when you were a jw, did you witness a rather large enthusiasm from your congregation for passing fads?

what i mean is, one dub would start something and everyone would join in?

this was especially prevelant with the women of the congregations.. for instance, for a while every female dub was undertaking this strange diet where they basically drink this really odd and particularly disturbing looking mushroom that they kept in their fridge.

aojumper

Our big fads in Scottsdale, Arizona were volleyball, all the guys were playing, and all the girls could watch. They thought they were so cool using there fancy sideout lingo.

We also had a Tastee Freeze fad after the service meeting. I am not sure if the owners were glad when the whole congo showed up every Wednesday night or terrified.

Has anyone heard of that muscle thing... where you go in and talk with a sister,and she "borrows your energy" and asks you questions and her finger helps her find out why your sick, sad or whatever. I forgot what it's called. something that has to do with Kinetics. There are several sisters in the Phoenix area that are into that. My mom calls 'em "Zen Christians"

This is a great thread!

K

5

I Didn't have to go to Memorial last night!!!

by aojumper in

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usually my mom calls me and let's me know when it is, about a month before last year she even bought me a dress.

it was really hard.

this year...nothing.

aojumper

Well, I wouldn't call it a pagan celebration as definitions go. I do say however that Jews know how to party.

K

5

I Didn't have to go to Memorial last night!!!

by aojumper in

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friends

usually my mom calls me and let's me know when it is, about a month before last year she even bought me a dress.

it was really hard.

this year...nothing.

aojumper

Usually my mom calls me and let's me know when it is, about a month before last year she even bought me a dress. It was really hard. This year...Nothing. This is good, because I since making my way through the first few books of the bible, i decided, i wanted to celebrate Passover. My friend is married to a jewish guy, not real active though...at all. Anywhoo, we decided to do a small passover and we had a friend send over a Haggadah (ha GAH da), and we did a passover dinner.

Lemme tell ya, this is what you want to celebrate! We drank four cups of wine before the end of a very short Haggadah and somewhere in there we thanked God for the product of the vine. A-men.

I just thought I'd share this as maybe an alternative to an otherwise crappy night (crappy for a variety of reasons). Get a bunch of friends together drink wine and eat a great big meal, and thank God for our freedoms.

K

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Do You Consider Yourself A Stronger Person Since Your Eyes Have Opened?

by minimus in

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since you've learned the truth about the "truth", do you feel emotionally, mentally and spiritually stronger?

aojumper

Absolutely!!!

It took a tremendous amount of strength to leave, then it continually took courage to make the baby steps away from the borg. I have a couple JW's that stop by biwekly (like clockwork) but I can face them and I do so because I feel so sorry for them. I pray that I can say the onw thing that will open up a crack in their minds.

But I am starting to enjoy and learn about other people and cultures and other... stuff. Like last night instead of attending the memorial, for the first time ever!!! A friend of mine and I organized a small passover with our husbands and her brother in law. It was so cool we kept it really simple and had a blast and when we passed the wine, we drank like fish! it was a great time.

Sadie.

If I might give a bit of advice, that you can simply put into your arsenal to draw on or at least think about. My advice is to love your husband, unconditionally, accept him and his choice, and love him, as Christ really truly loves us. When he sees the hipocrasy and fake love within' the borg he may come around. I would say anything you feel is appropriate to your children, teach them to question things, respectfully and love people for themselves, not what they do. As for you, well, I will say that in order to speak intelligently with witnesses (many of who are my family), I personally have started to read the bible cover to cover. I am reading the Life Application Bible, it gives a good explanation of certain scenarios, that we might interpret differently in our day and age. it is a good place to start to learn to educate your children and whenever possible your husband, whether or not you choose to subscribe to any system of beliefs it is nevertheless very fascinating to see what went on in those times (the bible is extremely historically acurate).

You are in my prayers also. My mantra through this whole ordeal is "That that doesn't kill me makes me stronger" Through this may your strength pass on to your children, and anyone you may encounter.

Much love

K

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Did You Really Understand What You Were Getting Into When You Got Baptized?

by minimus in

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the majority of people who become jehovah's witnesses, really have no idea what they've gotten themselves into.

did you truly understand those baptismal vows that you made?

aojumper

I was 18 when I got baptised, I had just graduated before the DC and had to make a choice...Move out of the house or get baptised so you can continue to live at home, go to meetings and have all your life's decisions made for you. I chise the latter, and have regretted it greatly. I knew once I left the house I wouldn't want to be a witness, so I had to wait until I couldn't take it anymore before I moved out. When I did, I left. It was a long process, but I think it was the only way for me to be totally sure of leaving, now I have no doubts. Had I left at 81 I would probably have struggled with the guilt and loneliness for a lot longer than I have on tha path I did take.

In retrospect, the Org doesn't even baptise in the name of the Father, Son and Holy Spirit, they baptise in the name of the organisation. So my contract as a pseudo Christian with them is null and void.

K

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Birthday List

by nicolaou in

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c'mon guys, we can celebrate our birthdays!!!.

post your birthdate here and let us know how you want to get your 'birthday card' (email, post on the board, text message, soaped-up kyliegram!).

my birthday is october 16th and i'd be happy to receive any of the above.. .

aojumper

April 27th I love gettin' cards!

K

23

How would you react if......

by Pleasuredome in

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the wts turned out to be right and in the next couple of years the great tribulation broke out?

would you have a change of heart and think "yeah maybe the were right all along!"?

would you even consider joining them again?

aojumper

You're right Realist, I am saying that based on my beliefs. Either way though, I feel the question and illustration are valid.

K