Hi susu,
Welcome to the board.
Know how you're feeling I was DF'ed about 13 months ago. It's terrible at first but with time you realise it's the best thing that could have happened to you.
Take time to heal then go enjoy your life, it is a much happier friendlier place than the borg makes it out to be.
For the first time in my life i'm truly happy, I'm now with a man that truly loves me and my kids, I have a great group of friends that I can rely on and an adopted family that is fantastic.
Hang in there it is really scary at first but once you get used to it it's wonderful.
Leah.