Hello Everyone Nemo here...just keep swimming, swimming, swimming.
Anyway, I let my closest friend know how I felt currently about the organization and what affect it has had on me. She has agreed to not share it with anyone, she won't, but these are the questions she possed to me. I need to reply soon but my mind is overwhelmed with everything I have learned so I would like help formulating some answers. This will help me in future dealing.
I will never doubt your love for Jehovah. Remember that illustration from a few assemblies ago about the diamond? If you look too closely you will see all the flaws, but to the naked eye it's beautiful. I'm not saying you should ignore what you found, but you may want to take a step back and look at the big picture. Jehovah's organization is imperfect and constantly being refined. Do you believe that Jehovah is using earthly organization? Do believe that the new system is coming? Do you believe that Jehovah has requirements for those that will survive? Do you think that there is any other organization that adheres to them better? I'm sorry if I'm making it sound to simple, but, really, what will you do if you find the answers that you don't want to hear? Where will you go?