Craig,
Your better half said it for me:
For me leaving was done slowly and over time. Bit by bit my little Watchtower came crumbling down and when I finally stepped back and saw the bigger picture (you know the one you can't see, the forest for the trees) I saw it for what it really is a lie, plain and simple. I knew that God couldn't be behind this organization and IF HE was, well HE isn't a God I wanted to worship, because his appointed Elders were lier's.
This statement along with my own personal experiences and doubts led me to the real truth. But I will admit..........no cold sweats but some bad sleep paterns and dreams about those I knew in the org. Those dreams seemed to be about me being around them......at a KH or whatever........and "faking" that I was one of them......but not being one of them.........or the dream had me trying to "subtly" tell them the real truth. These dreams stopped a few months ago and I don't miss them. My beliefs these days are very fullfilling..........I love going to church.........espcially Calvary Chapel......their message is soooooo bible based without pomp and ceremony. Now......I am ready.......willing....and able to stand up for what I believe if a dub I knew wants to have a chat...........BRING IT ON BRO!
HappyDad